#the hums are very specific and always happen when im thinking about a decition or something generally.

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Idk if anyone wants to know where the meow stim (and squeaky stim) came from but I do have a story.

The quick and easy explanation (at least as far as I remember) is that I used to repeat "shut up shut up shut up shut up" every time I thought about some situation where I fucked up. But I was like "oh that's a bad what do replace with?" And I think I eventually replaced it a meow. It also has the bonus of working a million time better bc repeating shut up would agitate me but a meow like. Legit just shuts up my brain lmao.

But now it's a stim I use a lot when overwhelmed or even just existing in addition to its original purpose.

#oh thats nice #im happy #diary #personal #stim #but i also have always mimicked animals as a stim. so a lot of them come from that. im pretty sure i used to meow when younger too #i also hiss. tho i do it much less than i used to. also...shake? or stretch. when i get the tingly feeling #oh then theres popping my lips. whistling. and a few little things i hum that i must finish when i start them #the hums are very specific and always happen when im thinking about a decition or something generally. #poping is an idle stim used to replace the whistle so i dont startle the bunny. same goes for snapping my fingers i think? #...the popping my lips started with me mimicking it from an anime lmao. and from there i couldnt stop XD #i have a lot more stims too. i just like my vocal ones a lot and wanted to talk about those. #i also have a lot of meows? purs? idk theyre sorta like a sigh to me ig? #theyre a very old one so im trying to remember where it comes from but cant quite? probably a meow originally. #oh! also i learned how to nuzzle things from rabbits and pkmn (no i wont explain) oh probably cats too. #i used to do this to my mom a lot when i was younger bc weird behavior was okay back then? #and i also used it with boyfriends when cuddling. but now its mostly for my stuffed animals (like always lmao) #that ones a rly huge show of affection for me lmao. like. my feelings during that are very strong ig? #i also have dermitilimania probably. cuz ive always picked and rubbed at my skin. but it doesnt hurt me bc i think i changed it to not #ive legitimately always done this one. only learned what it was later. but if im chilling im always doing it. #like while reading or talking to friends. and no. i will not stop this. since it doesnt rly damage my skin as far as im aware. #i just pick at what is... dust ig? idk. #...i also have always picked my nose and i cannot stop that bc i get so uncomfortable if my snot dries in my nose. fucking hate it. #also rubbing feet together when i sleep is and always has been necessary since i can remember. #i once asked my mom about it and she did it too so just said everyone does itm #i have now found out that not everyone does it tho. cuz ppl complained about how much i move in bed lmao. #i also hate when others move when sleepimg next to me tho. like!!! ur shaking the whole bed!!!! stop!!!!!! #i dont feel like trying to rememebr more. bye.