#the little dive bar that let him play? the club of nerds and outcasts in highschool?

[agentmmayy]

i am having Thoughts about the hellfire club t-shirts. dustin said they [the hellfire club] make them themselves. is there a printmaking/screen printing studio in the high school? does eddie have a friend in a college that might have one? does he barter with a store in town? who does he know that prints t-shirts. does he know how?? does he do it himself?? does he make his own band t-shirts too?? his own posters?? we saw the clearly homemade one in his room. i want to see the designs he doodled in the margins of his class notebooks. i want to comb through his room and see if he has a sketchbook full of them or scraps of paper he’s saved. i want to drench myself in the knowledge that eddie loved the arts. 

#he loved music and stories and art and probably (most definitely) theater and drama too #god. #he had his OWN BAND #he wrote his OWN LORE for the roleplaying fantasy game he DM'd FOR #a club HE CREATED #just. #i am so emotional over eddie having so much love inside of him and so much to give that he shared it with everyone he could #the little dive bar that let him play? the club of nerds and outcasts in highschool? #HE MADE HIS OWN CLOTHES!!!!!!! #HE PROBABLY DID HIS OWN TATTOOS!!!!!! #JUST TO SHOW HOW MUCH HE LOVED TO CREATE #AND SHARE WHAT HE LOVED #I'M FINE. #eddie munson #stranger things #eddie just wanted to be seen #isn't that what making art is all about? #isn't that what existing is all about too? #i love you. i love this thing inside of me that won't let me stop creating. let me share it with you. please see me. please love me. #i reblogged a post earlier today that [in summary] said eddie being loud and taking up so much space #was because he didn't want anyone to know he was so vulnerable #but if they just LOOKED #they would have known. they would have seen it. #and i WILL make this an eddissy post by saying that it took chrissy one not even five minute meeting in the woods to see him #when eddie went his entire nearly 7 years of highschool without being seen