#the problem is actually shopping for makeup is surprisingly hard bc I never know wtf to get

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I forgot how good of a coping mechanism(stim?regulator/??) that doing makeup is until I just did makeup the other day coz I knew I’d need a moral boost to get through the day and something to focus on while I did other stuff. then reminded again today when I knew I needed something to steel my nerves for the rest of the day & to make stuff easier. I felt way better about stuff and it’s making me remember I was gonna get more makeup stuff and I just keep forgetting which is problematic considering how helpful makeup is for me

#thoughts #Oni talks #I did all pink color coding with a reject dress for the wedding and a lipstick I forgot to bring/decided against bringing #that I wish I would have brought coz it would’ve been perfect for one of the outfits #so I just really wanted to wear that lipstick which I originally got on a whim for myself and not to wear anywhere coz it’s kind of a lot #but I find myself wearing it all the time by myself coz it’s just nice idk #and then today I did all purple #and either yesterday or the day before I decided ti be goth with my fancy shirt #which also reminds me i wanna get more of those clothes especially since I was watching this one YouTuber #where they talk about history and also wear historical fashion and it’s an aesthetic I aspire ti because it’s just so good?? #and we look vaguely similar too so I know it’s an achievable aesthetic which makes me want the clothes even more #oni talks #the only downside to makeup is that I have to take it off #but yeah again today I was realizing I need to get more stuff partially bc some of my stuff is ridiculously old so it’s kinda weird #& I’m unsure if I should still be using some of it tbh + I’m almost out of some stuff #and the other stuff just doesn’t have enough colors? especially since I like doing color themed things which just yeah #the problem is actually shopping for makeup is surprisingly hard bc I never know wtf to get #also still sad I lost some of my favorite makeups and I lost stuff again and idk where it went :( #I really should learn more about makeup as well but learning hard #I’ve found I also am always torn on whether or not I wanna do mascara bc I really love how it looks but it’s the WORST to clean #like genuinely hate trying to remove mascara it also messes with my eyelashes and just blegh #but like at the same time most looks never look complete without it so?? #I also gotta get more lips bc as I said I like color theming and I just don’t have many colors that aren’t like basic af #except maybe blue I had a ton of blue for some reason but that was one of the things I lost! I tried to find this one lipstick the other day #since it’s the darkest lipstick I own and I wanted to be goth but I couldn’t find it and purple didn’t work so I had to do red #and like yes red works with everything but it also gets boring after a while ok #I also probably should get new brushes and eyeliner bc my eyeliner is… rough tbh #I thought I ordered a new eyeliner but idk if they actually delivered it tbh #makeup is one of those things I don’t buy for a really long time and then the one time I do I get a bunch #and then I don’t get any for like a bunch more time again