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#then I also got very deep into ed behavior which also drains all the energy and personality away
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I don't understand how people get excited to start college
#even as a freshman I didn't wanna go
#i knew it was gonna be rough
#and I enjoyed hs ngl. I just knew college was gonna be bad
#and it was! hate that place
#it literally ruined my personality and I actually am upset about that
#I used to be soooo funny and cool. but being absolutely exhausted and miserable constantly drained the life outta me
#then I also got very deep into ed behavior which also drains all the energy and personality away
#it's weird to talk about ed things bc like. I think of that as a relapse but I never recovered
#I have had this for years now and have never stopped. it's still very present
#it just doesn't consume me as much at certain times ig. so when it becomes a very big focus I think of it as a relapse
#when in reality. my behavior hasnt really changed. I just spend way more time thinking about things
#honestly my current situation is worse than it was before. now I'm running more than before while eating less most days
#I'm gonna be honest. idk how my body does this
#the amount of energy I expend vs the amount I consume. very disproportionate
#I also have been sleeping less recently and I normally don't sleep much sooooo that's not great
#where is my energy and ability to function coming from? I don't have much to burn up realistically
#ALSO idk what I did but I've started feeling genuine hunger for the first time in years
#usually what I consider hunger is actually just some sort of sickness/weakness/nausea and pain that lets me know to eat
#but a few days ago I actually got hungry. which I did not enjoy but it went away after a little while
#idk why that happened
#Sera
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