#then again this stems from an actual experience i had w a big fandom creator blowing up at me for saying dirk was in the wrong sometimes

[4lph4kidz]

honestly hilarious how many punches ive been pulling for fear of coming off wrong wrt fucking homestuck of all things but it's not just lame cowardice on my part like i think since bearing witness to the kind of insane fandom discourse that existed 2016-2020 i'm half convinced i'll be skinned alive if i imply something strange or unsavory about somebody's blorbo. but actually no that makes it sound like there will be tangible consequences for mildly irritating someone on the internet which isn't true generally speaking it's just the rsd/ocd and i need to get over the idea of people not liking me

#what having several thousand followers does to a motherfucker with problems. #then again this stems from an actual experience i had w a big fandom creator blowing up at me for saying dirk was in the wrong sometimes #dunno if this ramble makes sense but you're getting it anyway #i should grow a spine or something #i don't even want to change anything i do all that much i just want to stop worrying so much about this kind of thing bc it gets in the way #i'm tired of feeling like i should steer clear of putting forward #even the most mildly unpleasant/strange/controversial of ideas just because someone might not like it #that's not! how you make! art! #it's something i need to get over with in general not just wrt to fan content lmao