#then this crossover piece! which combines all of the problems! except i guess objective length

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uuuuugggggggh, I really want this fic to be ALREADY finished at the same level of quality that I produced for the opening bit

(which i guess expecting it to be done and easy discredits how much work went into the opening bit but still....it’s so so far from being done and i wish it was already done because i want to find someone who is also in love with this idea and analysis and talk to them about it)

#look it's a crossover so it's going to be doomed to obscurity #and the fact that i'm trying to ape danged sir terry pratchett does not make this any easier #BUT NO ONE ELSE IS GOING TO WRITE THIS IDEA SO GUESS I'M STUCK WITH WRITING IT #i've got about four fics total... #i've only got about four fics total...but only one is conceivably close to completion #and two are frankly above my skill level (this is one of them) #but...i get the feeling that these things are so niche that i am the only one who's gonna properly speak them into existence #(not necessarily niche as in no one will enjoy them but i also zero expect to find someone else writing them the way i want) #if only i had more energy more often to do anything other than army-drag myself once a week to working on any one of them #rose-ten cyborg dystopia thing that combines my favorite fandom-specific tropes has a monster plot #and i've been avoiding it for over a year because i can't bring myself to write this dang next scene #martha character analysis piece is super dang hard because i'm laser focused on every line (i swear i'm gonna have to be a poet or somthng #because i don't think i'm cut out for novel-ing with the amount of scrutiny that each line gets) #and also the martha piece involves Sensitive Subjects and Heavy Things that require respectful research and so. much. thought #susan character study/science-fangirling piece's end is literally in sight but i keep not writing it because i have to do describing #(i hate describing. it's so hard. stupid plot and things that happened are way harder than conversations or thoughts) #and also the remaining scene and ending involves writing about some kinda heavy stuff #then this crossover piece! which combines all of the problems! except i guess objective length #it's supposed to be only 4 chapters max but it's 4 plotted chapters of distilled prose with heavy subject matter and satire #and it needs aforementioned Plot which i don't care much about inventing but really is necessary for the story to work right #people who say fanfiction is easy are wrong actually