#theres been a boost in confidence lately now that the constant migraines are gone so. yeah.

[beaversatemygrandma]

Ya know. I’ve been thinking about getting my ears re-pierced. I’ve always been terrified of the idea since when i was eight and i got them pierced, they weren’t properly taken care of. (I was 8. It was done at Claire’s. My dad took me. My mom had no say and literally didn’t help me keep them treated. I was 8.) And then when i got down to one earring bc one got Fucked Up. My mom gave me these old sterling studs that were HEAVY. Like. So heavy, the scar is nearly split through my lobe.

We passed by a tattoo and piercing place out of curiosity today and the lady there said it would actually be simple to do it even with that strange scar. Also to never get heavy earrings again bc i might have weak lobes or some shit. And they’re only like $25-40 there. I took down the number and I’m likely going to think about that one even tho she also said “Don’t think. Just Do.” which was either a sales pitch or genuine life advice which i very much needed. I didn’t take the advice bc I forgot to take my meds today and i don’t want to be a problem.

#taks speaks #its just the fact that i have a HIGH Pain Tolerance now but still have high anxiety #it's weird. shit doesn't hurt me At All but my brain is like YOURE GONNA DIE NO. #did the same goddamn thing with the IV for surgery #the lady there also seemed annoyed bc my dad kept talking and talking and yeah me too i didn't want to bother her much just had the one Q #this was all sparked by me standing in a hot topic #yeah. just how it goes. #ive been thinking about this for YEARS tbh i want the cute gender flavor it adds #there was also these really cute black studs there as starter ones and yeah. #side note i also got a cute button up covered in mushrooms and it just screams mushroom lesbian and im in love with it #theres been a boost in confidence lately now that the constant migraines are gone so. yeah. #i dont feel like shit and my ears arent always ringing so my brain is like 75% normal again which is GREAT #even if the surgery to do so was twice the price of my car. but i still have a couple thousand so nbd ig #i could put a down payment on a damn apartment still or have emergency fuck up insurance in my savings and thats what matters