#these have been my thoughts recently abt my narrys design

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me in the day thinking abt tsp: hehe funny british man get mad n pissy, buckets and average man

me at 2am: narry do you ever wonder if my worries of designing you in an original way are, in a sense, dramatic irony when considering the fact that its very much related to the topics of ultra deluxe, where both of us got stuck in the cycle of feeling anxious over changing ourselves for the sake of pleasing others and of fear of driving them away, only to realise that in giving external reviews of our art power and desperately trying to appeal to all of them do we end up losing the original joy of the art? do you think its fucked up how through this experience, ive ended up with a skip button ending of my own where ive been forcing myself to make the content i think others would love instead of the ones i love personally. would a redesign even feel fitting? should i forgo the whole originality aspect and just let you be yourself, like how i should let myself make the art i want to make, and let you speak and be heard rather than skipped over?

the narrator, tired: For fucks sake, go tO BED-

#ozzy vent #(??? kinda?) #these have been my thoughts recently abt my narrys design #truth be told i have so many ideas for tsp thst i never do bc it never seems to get a lot of notes #i have since been working to distance from depending on likes and reblogs but its hard sjfjsjf #i love my narry i love my virgil my old man #but by god this is the first design/oc/interpretation of a character thats grown alongside me #however with the new year i hope to work on healing this weird state i am with tsp #i love it dearly #the game the community (though at times things get rough) and the characters themselves #but next year i want to make the tsp content i wanted to make this year #ill be replaying the game more n trying to form my own thoughts on certain endings and aspects #and... ill be enjoying it hopefully #not worrying about trends or overarching rp n stories #but on the stuff that makes me happy #anyways sorry for the lack of posts recently ajdjjaf #ill be back soon i hope #in the meantime it is now 3am #ozzies tsp rambles #good night