#they GOT ME A MOTHMAN PLUSHIE AND ITS THE CUTEST THING EVER (after them of course)

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crying screaming throwing up etc etc etc

#chatter #em #made me TWO!!! playlists #we like to express our love for each other through playlists which is actually so cute of us #but they made me a playlist themed around i love you ! so some songs i've heard and some new ones #which is always a treat!! #they also made me a playlist themed around slow dancing in the kitchen #and they included songs ive sent them and offhandedly mentioned how i wanna dance w someone in the kitchen to them #god . i know it sounds like a small thing and a silly thing for me to be crying about but . i just #its so fucking crazy to me they listen? like of COURSE they listen theyre a god damn sweetheart and they know me sometimes better #than i know myself #as someone who kinda just vibed a lot alone and got used to solitude its crazy to me ill mention something once and they'll remember it #like i made a joke that if they wanted to get me anything for my birthday they should get me mothman #and guess what #they GOT ME A MOTHMAN PLUSHIE AND ITS THE CUTEST THING EVER (after them of course) #and its just like . oh my god? you not only listen to what i say but you remember? and you genuinely know who i am? #like . what the fuck bro that's crazy #yall know that tweet thats like you get kidnapped and theyll return you if you can speak about something for 30 minutes #yeah i could speak about em and how much i love them for like actual hours . #i just feel so incredibly lucky to be known and loved by them yknow? its . yeah . its good #it hurts sometimes because they're far away from me and sometimes my heart gets so excited i just. need to squeeze them and theyre not here #BUT as ive said before i would do this over and over and over and over and over just to say hello to them once more #EEP we're going to be together in like 3ish weeks HOLY FUCK #this reminded me to buy my concert outfit eugh im gonna look soooo cute actually #ANYWAY #my heart is so full and i love them an incredible amount <3 #UPDATE ON THIS: i changed my blog title to 'oh loverboy' yesterday? and theres A SONG CALLED LOVERBOY ON THE PLAYLIST THEY SENT ME #OH HHHHH MY GOD MY FUCKING H E A R T #we're really on our own wavelength huh