#this feeling is truly getting unbearable ive never felt so insecure and inferior in terms of my intelligence in my entire life. and its

[wickershells]

god i feel so stupid all the time like i am far too unintelligent for every discussion i have and i am such a crybaby over it. people mildly and fairly correct me or word something much more eloquently and concise and beautiful than i ever could or even just read something id been meaning to for a long time and instantly i spiral into self-worthlessness. and years ago this feeling motivated me into reading more, researching more, writing more etc. so that i was always aspiring to level with people & be an equal but now i feel paralysed by it!!! all i want to do is curl up into a ball and weep and never talk to anyone ever again. am i destined forever to be a small vulnerable wounded child. who is just so so so dumb. how do i get over this

#i know i just have to wrestle and kick my way back to how it used to be where i power through the feeling and better myself #but it is just so hard when i constantly feel inferior in every way. i think my problem is that ive felt this way for so long that it has #kinda broke me and now all i think is “what's the point? everyone is always gonna be smarter than me so what's the point?” #might as well starve myself of conversation because i am never going to feel adequate enough to be having them. it is so weird #and the ferocity is rooted in all my other mental baggage i think. constantly looking for reasons i shouldnt be here and this just gets #added to the list. especially doesnt help when i am convinced my friends dont like me and would rather be talking to anyone else. man #this feeling is truly getting unbearable ive never felt so insecure and inferior in terms of my intelligence in my entire life. and its #been pretty bad before! what do i do what do i do what do i do. ughhhhhhhhhhh #it adds to my persistent feeling of stagnancy. everyone gets better everyone gets smarter everyone moves forward and i am here #vent #mine