#this is!!! beautiful!?!? and horrendous in like a heartbreaking way ty ; 0 ;

[tangledinink]

I have a fic gift inspired by this post https://www.tumblr.com/tangledinink/724042848550404096/do-you-mean-to-imply-that-he-will-be-18-19-or?source=share

While I don't belive this will actually happen the angst was too good to ignore. I'm sorry if it's bad, I'm currently sick lmao

This is kinda the grief of losing a sibling you once thought you knew for content warning

Leo didn't know why he thought Donnie would even be glad or remember their birthday.

Maybe it was some dull hope that Donnie would remember his family indefinitely, after all nothing meant more than family in the Hamato Clan.

Maybe Donnie didn't believe that it was their birthday because of some long held details of them being twins that transferred over or that they technically weren't born on the same day (or that the lake had some time dilation thingie).

Maybe this was the end of their twin hood.

It was strange seeing Donnie all dressed up as some Swan Lake ballerina wannabe. The more and more Leo saw Donnie, or Swan-Don, the more he forgot what Donnie looked like before the curse.

Pictures helped him remember the before time, before the curse, before his brother attacked him, be he was a stranger in a mirror, before there was no longer a mirror to look at.

The things Leo once knew about Donnie, were now mere footnotes of a life they once had. Ballerina and honong his fighting and lake duties was all Donnie seemed to like doing. If he remember Donnie tried to figure out the lake curse. At least Mikey could relate with the ballerina stuff and Raph with fighting but there was less room for Leo.

Maybe Donnie was no longer his brother.

On rare occasions, Leo was able to ninja his way to the lake unnoticed, he saw how at piece Donnie was. Not worried about remembering, protecting a stupid lake, or being the best technician in the world, just a wierd Swan turtle enjoying Swan turtle things.

Would Donnie even like pizza or skateboarding with his brothers anymore?

Maybe they weren't even family anymore.

Leo was tired of them being the only ones to put in the effort to help Donnie escape. Well Donnie was putting in effort but everytime he chased them off, everytime he fought against them, everytime he hurt the rest of his family, Leo wondered who Donnie was more loyal to.

The more Donnie told Leo to get out, the Leo was inclined to return. The more Donnie forgot Leo, the less Leo thought there was success in removing the curse. The more Donnie fought Leo, the less Leo saw the person who was his family.

Did Donnie even love Leo? Who knows. Donnie would certainly forget.

At this point it was the lake who had Donnie's love but Leo liked to think differently. It was all in vain.

Maybe the lake was Donnie's family now and Leo would just have to accept that.

Hope was a ninjas greatest weapon, but what was it too seeing a person you once loved dearly dissappear right in front of you?

Maybe Donnie wasn't even Donnie anymore, just a pawn of the lake to forever protect the queen.

aaaa!?!?!? ; 0 ; yOU WROTE A THING FOR ME??? I AM,,, SO FLATERED,,,

#this is!!! beautiful!?!? and horrendous in like a heartbreaking way ty ; 0 ; #asks #anon #swanatello fanworks