#this is a very overdramatic way to feel about silly fanfic. anyway idk I just love writing. so much love in my bones today. OKAY BYE

[cha1cedony]

I'm gonna ramble about fic writing (while taking a break from actually writing, but I'm making progress this time! I promise! woohoo. knock on wood). ANYWAY, one of my favorite things to consider as far as characterization goes is self-awareness. Because there's so many different ways and degrees to which a protagonist can be self-aware, and I just LOVE seeing how characters shift (not necessarily 'grow') over the timeline of a story. I love thinking about where a specific character would choose willful ignorance, where they would choose to come to terms with a harsh reality, where they would be entirely oblivious, where they're NOT oblivious but can't even verbalize it in their own internal monologue... chef's kiss. My favorite stuff to write

#in the context of Silver Linings I feel like this mostly applies to Grant's approach to different people/relationships in his life #especially with Darryl and Andy #and I think it's fun that they're kind of going opposite directions rn haha #I don't think that's too spoilery.. um anyway #I'm just. idk. endlessly fascinated by the concept of character writing. because it feels so organic. like I'm shaping clay or someshit #especially in fanfic because I didn't create these characters (well. excluding the OCs.) BUT STILL I just love seeing how they #sort of shape themselves throughout the course of a timeline. not even necessarily a 'plot' (because lord knows there is no plot in my fic) #I never intended Antoine for example to be anything more than a throwaway name #and I still don't know a lot of details about his life or anything. but sometimes I write little things and reread them #and it feels like there is a glimpse to some preexisting character there! that I didn't even intend! and like! that's so neat to me #I just love watching my characters (OC or otherwise; tbh I do NOT have any emotional stake in the Silver Linings OCs) change #this is a very overdramatic way to feel about silly fanfic. anyway idk I just love writing. so much love in my bones today. OKAY BYE #chalcy stuff #sorry for the (probably incoherent) ramble omg I just realized how long this is 😭 I had to delete some tags too haha