cha1cedony

[cha1cedony]

Dude it is SO FUN and EXCITING to see a reoccurring reader. If you've commented a handful of times on an author's work, I guarantee that they recognize you. You can't imagine how many times I've excitedly informed my friends "the person with the funny cat image commented!" "- anon is back!!!!" and the friends've recognized who I was talking about because I talk about my commenters so often LOL. We love you all!!!

#my beloveds ❤️ #and people who comment on every chapter when they read a multichap fic.. even if it’s already completed…. 🫶🫶🫶

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And I thought writing awkward teenage makeouts was hard. Oh my god. Writing good adult makeouts is nightmarish

#I have to describe tongues? are you joshing me 🙁😞 #light hearted :3 #I am having fun 🫶 #chalcy stuff

[cha1cedony]

Glenn Close

#dndads #:) #good morninggggg I woke up so many times last night blegh

[cha1cedony]

Keep writing ‘shows’ as ‘shoes’ 😭 like multiple times today. Enough that I noticed it lol

#perhaps a Freudian slip given my recent writings #I mean. who said that #chalcy stuff

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That old man actually has no effect on me any more

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Here is another song for the first time in a billion years. It’s very on the nose but this song makes me. think of my own fic lmao. Specifically the very last scene :)

#anyway it’s a good song! and by the Adventure Time end theme band :3 #just made me think of Grant and Darnell ^_^ #the rest of the lyrics.. made me think of. well. you know who #cough Andrew. cough. #I neeeeeeeed to write so many new parts to this series #I have so many planned that I could do next (after the Close/Foster-centric part which I WILL finish first) #I love this AU sm they’re like my OCs <3 #well. a good amount of them ARE my OCs…. mostly. just took their names from a piece of bonus content lol #csotd

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SORRY FOR ALL THE POSTING ON THIS BLOG BTW LOL. Whenever I post like this (ramble off literally everything on my mind and my to-do list), it’s because I’m procrastinating on something more important lol

#chalcy stuff

[cha1cedony]

Feeling more chill and at peace now 🕺 Mostly bc I have had time to decompress, but also I am very excited about this oneshot (nobody else will be, I PROMISE you lmao)… but unfortunately I have to do finals before I cab work on it again 😔 Hellish, truly. But once I’m done with THIS oneshot, I can work on the ones I am REALLY excited about

#this one has just been plaguing my mind #atp I am writing it out of spite. but it’s fun #:3c #anyway I promise this fic will not appeal to anyone #but I’m going to write it anyway 🙏 god bless #chalcy stuff

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I’m going to unlearn shame *bursts into tears and beats my head against a brick wall*

#this is also going on the fandom blog bc it summarizes my previous posts better than I could LMAOO

[cha1cedony]

Posting on Tumblr will not make me explode into a million pieces (negative) 🧘 Everything is alright and beautiful 🧘 time to go eat food. Also work on that Silver Linings prequel draft instead of my.. other shenanigans lol

#actually. it's time to work on my FINALS AGHHH #I need to focus #but...... I want to write............... and not essays #tragic #chalcy stuff

[cha1cedony]

I am gen so scared of posting this oneshot actually sooo. Never mind I think! 🥲 But maybe I will change my mind once I finish writing it. Who knows... (ANYWAY warning for a very long, anxiety-filled ramble in the tags lmao)

#nsfw #<- tagging just bc I'm gonna discuss it in the notes. bc it feels more impersonal lmao. hi #anyway! I am just nervous about the possibility of people being mad about me writing M-rated stuff with aged-up (?) characters #actually I will not vaguepost.. it's Gothcleats (again. they are always on the brain sorry) #it's weird bc they DO have canon adult appearances in the S2 epilogue. and I'm writing post-canon stuff! so they ARE canonically adults #they're not REALLY aged up at all. which I have always kinda gone back and forth on my (personal) feelings on anyway so shrug #they're actually younger in this draft (24-25) than in the S2 epilogue (like late 30s) so. IDK IDK I feel conflicted and anxious..... #I just want to write my silly 'crack treated seriously'-adjacent fic okay............ #I did a very T-rated fade-to-black scene in my other Gothcleats fic and that was like. fine #but obviously they are teens for 99.999% of the season... so idk. I feel like people will feel weird about it #and this is NOT explicit either! but definitely a lot less SFW than the other thing #and idk I just feel hesitant bc I have some mutuals who are very much in the 'don't like don't read' camp #and other mutuals who are VERY opposite of that #ik it's just like the classic fandom discourse but idk. it stresses me out!!! rahh #it's so inconsequential... but I want to be liked :3c and have fandom friends #but also I just want to write my silly fanfics #<- procrastinating on sooooo many finals rn #I guess I am showing my cards with this post anyway LMAO so ig it doesn't matter anymore... ahghhg whatever #this is such a compulsive post sorry. I just have been having weird OCD (?) shit about this and wanted to get it out in a non-vaguepost for #delete later #probably #tl;dr local adult scared of writing non-explicit fic involving two canonically adult characters #which.. sounds very stupid when I type it out 😭😭 #ik y'all will either look at this post and say I'm being overdramatic (fair) or be uncomfortable (sad but also fair ig) so. idk. done now #drinking game: take a shot every time cha1cedony says 'idk' #also if y’all have strong opinions you can send me anons. I don’t want to seek reassurance so hatemail is also accepted 🙏 LMAO #chalcy stuff

[cha1cedony]

Okay I’m supposed to be doing finals rn lmaoo buuut… perhaps tomorrow or the next couple of days :3

Someday I will have my freaknasty arc but unfortunately I’m too scart!!!! 😬 <- teeth chattering

#nsfw #who am I to refuse the people (all 6 of them) what they want? 😇 #(nobody wants this I promise) #goodnight!!! ❤️🙏 #chalcy stuff

[cha1cedony]

guys did u know that i’m dndads s2 dood was a bad girl

they did some bad things

they swear they did it all for fun and it meant nothing

#karma’s a bitch (immediately sent to hell) #dndads

[cha1cedony]

Oh nooooo… it looks like I have no choice 😓

Someday I will have my freaknasty arc but unfortunately I’m too scart!!!! 😬 <- teeth chattering

#sigh….. oh well…………….. #<- sarcasm lmao #chalcy stuff

[cha1cedony]

Will posting a non-explicit/M-rated kink discovery fic on main kill me dead? Let’s discuss

Someday I will have my freaknasty arc but unfortunately I’m too scart!!!! 😬 <- teeth chattering

#nsfw #cw nsfw #idk how else to tag this. ANYWAY #it’s NOT a thing I’m even into. I am very very aroace #in a truly ‘reads smut for the plot’ way #it’s mostly just a character study tbh #I don’t have it done but I have a very detailed outline.. hm #I would jusy post on anon but unfortunately ik several people who will recognize my writing #and I fear I will be teased incessantly 😔 #bc it’s ‘weird’ 🫶 #even though it’s like the least out-there thing 🙄 whatever #but maybe it’s worth it. to get bizarre and offputting with it. sounds fun… #I have other things I should be writing but last night I wrote a 3k word outline at midnight lol #anyway sorry for the extremely vague post #I cannot go into more detail or I will unfortunately Explode and Die. hope this helps ❤️ /j #chalcy stuff

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Sometimes I see a respected mutual in my notes and remember they follow me and I'm like. Should I apologize for what I'm doing here. But they did choose to be in my house

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Sorry for being such a slow writer, it's because I [remembers that self-deprecating jokes are harmful to my mental health and make everyone else uncomfortable] was attacked by dark spirits and washed up on the shore of a mysterious island with no recollection of who I was