#this is just me being Emo ughguhg

[snowmiku]

im really sad and upset and i brought this upon myself and i hate it so much and hhhhhhhhhhhhh

#irl.txt #this is SO text heavy im so sorry im literally just crying and spilling out my thoughts im sorry #this is just me being Emo ughguhg #u kno im so bad! with this moving on process ! bc im ok for DAYS but ukno i still. Think about It it never leaves me #but i can be okay! i wont cry i wont. dwell on it i dont Want it again #but. ugh today has been a set back because i woke up AGAIN thinking about. what happened. and her. and #i hate it. i hate it so much bc my brain Wouldnt stop thinking about it and so i started writing about it so it was thinking about it More #n then the entire day was wasted with thinking about Her and Us and What Happened And why did she leave me again ?? oh yeah bc im a piece of #shit and it was all my fault and she left me and i have No One and ill always have no one #and i found. UGH im literalyl doing this as punishment at this point and ik its! wrong to do this! #but i found my old google docs of. her. of when we were actually Together Together and i can Feel how in love i was and i fuKCING HATE IT #i hate how im never going to feel like that again i hate how im never going to have anyone again i hate how im thinking of her i hate how #shes taking over my life because of what. fucking. happened. #i hate knowing ! i hate thinking ! i hate wanting ! #her her her thats all i think about her her her it never leaves me her her her i just want Her back #i just want her. fucking back. #and thats So emo to say thats so fucking emo to say like stop crying over a girl rip youve been crying over her for months #almost a year! u cant move on from her! bc u know that she was suppose to be with u ur entire life! bc she was ur soulmate! and ur never #going to find another person like her ripley ur so fucking stupid u Messed up ur entire life rip you did thsi u did this you fucking did thi #its not even because i loved her! she was my best friend! she was my best friend she was my best friend #yeha i loved her. i loved her i needed her ineeded her to function and i cant function and i cant . do this anymore!!!!!!!! #i just Want her back or at least . i want to fucking feel something again. but i cant move on and it sucks and i dont know what to do.