#this relapse mightve happened anyway

[razberrypuck]

thinking about the undersea again. can't wait for gillion "don't practice what you preach" tidestrider to see the elders again ESPECIALLY after being factory reset in the navy stronghold. can't wait for chip and jay, who KNOW what they did to him to some extent, to bring up everything he's told them (about being good enough for yourself, about standing up to authority figures, about doing what YOU think is right) only for him to keep making excuses for the elders. to keep defending them when they really, truly do not deserve it. can't wait for jay and chip to finally see him acting like the soldier the elders raised in full. to see him stonefaced and rigid, always at attention, hesitant to speak to the elders unless spoken to. to look in his eyes when the elders address him, and seeing only fear. can't wait fo-- *gets shot*

#i think we as a society dont talk abt gillions hypocrisy enough. anyway. #i think even if he HADNT sat in The Torture Chair hed still have this kind of mindset when meeting the elders again #hes always made excuses for them;; as recently as /ep 98/ #but now its worse. bc now hes gone back to WANTING to be the perfect little soldier they made. #i think #after the tree #this relapse mightve happened anyway #not to this extent but. it wouldve happened eventually. #i love making myself emotional over things that Havent Happened Yet :) #jrwi riptide #jrwi #just roll with it #jrwi show #gillion tidestrider #jrwi gillion