#tho unlikely they're blocked u kno..

[alligaytorswamp]

im pretty sure god is testing my sanity at this point kjasdhjkashdskjdah

like how on earth within a few days i get two shitty ex-friends to text me after a long period of time of cimplete silence?? HOW

and .. ahahah one of them.. fucking boring. 2 month of Nothing after cutting me off to come back and tell me it’s all my fault. so immature and pathetic, i had to force myself to even make a response to that joke of a message because truly.. it was so very stupid ... but still it definitely did cause some insanity in the past few days. any person would feel quite crazy when someone is so blatanly ignoring the facts and just decides to shift the blame on you for .. well.. hurting you lol. 

the other one... A BULLY-BESTIE.. SOMEONE WHO WAS MY ABUSER BUT ALSO AN ONLY “FRIEND” IN MY CLASS.... SOMEONE I WAS SICK AND SCARED OF AND COULD NOT ESCAPE FOR 12+ YEARS... SHE MESSAGED ME.... and for the context... i hate this girl i mean she was your very basic completely rotten and toxic person who had this spineless sad bitch to boss around (me). i did escape when we gradueated but Fear i had for her never really went away. she got married right out of hs and i did my best not to go to the damn wedding. which was a bit embarassing because she would not let me say no and i was coming up with every excuse possible.. and there i thought ‘oh she must hate  me since i didnt go to her wedding right ?? thats so cool i hope she forgets i exist.’ annnd now it’s been like 3+ years? sure she gave me some scares by congratulating me on my bday once and sending a random ass msg some other time.. but i truly believed this whole trauma of mine is gone and i get to just forget and heal. but nah besties. this cursed person texted me yesterday at like 3 am saying smth along the lines of “i love you and i miss you idk what happened and why we stopped talking but i wanna see you and start talking again <3″ yall cant imagine the insanity i felt

its just so funny... because... well i dont :) i hate your guts and god forbid i ever see you i think i will die on the spot that’s how much i hate and fear you hhh

regardless... i’ve learned my lesson... the toxic morons in your life... they may come back. and unfortunately it’s very likely that they have not gotten any better, they didn’t magically mature or reflect on their actions... and the dead give away of that is .. them not apologizing at all uwu

anyways im gonna go be mentally ill <3

#vent #adry.txt #negative #uhhh #i feel like such a hot shit #like all toxic ppl want me so bad they cant even let me go damnnnn #now i just need another One to msg me and i will have the whole fukcing set #tho unlikely they're blocked u kno.. #ahhh #literally felt so brain damaged when i saw that girl saying these things.. gross... #fyi the first person got a juicy responce but the 2nd didnt #i dont wanna talk to her at all and i want to kinda get some advice from a friend #maybe i will just block her for my own sake #btw she lives kinda close to me so all these 3+ years i was so scared i will run in her #like deadass i once saw her mother and grandma and fuckign ran away from that place #kjahkjdshkjsdh #its not funny at all i know #but god #2 bitches in a few days... how is this real #just leave me alone pls i dont wanna talk to nasties.. hhh #i spent the whole say playing gi because i didnt even wanna think about these ppl or things they did/said #good god #*day #also hope there r not too many typos bc i did not proof read much sowwy #hope yall having a better day and toxic ppl dont bother u #if u read this whole thing hi hello thank u for reading hope u enjoyed my little life drama but its the end now bye :p