#to sit around for an hour or more waiting for class to start. 🧐

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Can’t tell if I actually genuinely think this job interview tomorrow is a bad idea, or I’m just trying to convince myself it is because I don’t want to do it

#it’s an online interview so i think cancelling wouldn’t be too much of a dick move because presumably this person is interviewing all day #but i’ve already told people about it so they’ll be like ‘hey how did the interview go :)’ and i don’t want to say i cancelled it #but. look this place gives me bad vibes #the business isn’t even open yet so i’ll be one of the first staff hired and chances are i’ll be hauling stuff all over the place #and helping set up. and that just sounds annoying and difficult #plus i thought it was just retail but i looked it up and they have a bar??? which means they probably saw my bartending & barista experience #and that’s why they want me. these people are not going to let me sit down and uhhhh i have an arthritic knee. i need to sit down #also the employment satisfaction reviews are really terrible #i’m talking like; people mentioning they were getting abuse from customers and still weren’t allowed to ban them #but comparable businesses would absolutely ban those type of customers on the first instance #at this place they just let them stay though and you have to serve them even if they’re clearly abusive and not in their right mind #i also saw that you get asked complex mathematical questions in the interview and listen. my brain is mostly fog right now #every single one of my prescription meds is clashing with one of the others and making me sleep 10 hours a day #and my brain feels like a tired soup even if i have slept 10 hours #(or 9. or 8. or 7. it’s basically a 24/7 thing) #suffice to say i don’t think i’m going to be doing fucking mathematics #also it’s a teams interview and i hate them. although it is kind of nice to not have to take the train for half an hour just to be rejected #OH THAT’S THE OTHER THING. they open at 8:30 and it takes me half an hour to get there #so if they want me in right at opening i still need to get a bus at like 7:50. but more likely it’ll be way earlier than that #soooooo it’s not actually much better than my previous job where i was getting up at 6 to get a train at 7:10 to get to college at 8 #to sit around for an hour or more waiting for class to start. 🧐 #i know i live out in the back of the back of beyond and i will therefore have some stupid commutes. but come ON #and if i work the closing shift instead there literally isn’t a bus late enough to facilitate that for me. they stop at 8pm. when will i win #i’m just going to send an email cancelling it even though it’s the middle of the night and then i’m going to withdraw my interest on indeed #and then i’m going to bed #and if anyone asks; they made me do maths in the interview so i burst into tears and started eating the drywall #personal