#to the people who dont know: my aa au is abt a couple of the characters from the series as childhood friends

[caramelmochacrow]

realizing the d4dj fic im working on is similar to this one fic in my aa au that. means so much to me. both are not yet done.

d4dj one: is abt a group of friends hanging out w four of their friends before they might cut contact w them forever because of a change they cannot control.

aa one: is abt a group of friends hanging out w one of their friends before they might cut contact w them forever because of a change they cannot control.

d4dj one: is kind of helping me cope w the fact that my sister will be going to college soon and that i might go to college soon too.

aa one: helped/is helping me cope w the fact that i moved away from all of my childhood friends, all my friends in general, and my relatives without saying proper goodbyes.

well damn.

#crow talks #i am ok why do u ask? #to be kind of honest. #all my fics are so personal to me. #i put a lot of feelings into them small or big #an example of that is lost nirvana. #but another VERY big example is my aa au itself. #to the people who dont know: my aa au is abt a couple of the characters from the series as childhood friends #they all made a promise to see each other again in the future. together. no matter what. #i based. a ton of their interactions on my friends irl #some were inspired by real life events. #and then i decided that the reason one of them disconnected w them is bc of them moving bc of. Character Reasons. #and it was very important that i was going to make it HURT and SAD because i knew it must be hurt to be disconnected w people right? #i wrote. a ton of words for it that it made ao3 lag a bit for me. #so i had to make it into five chapters #and now that i've moved from all of my friends and felt everything i was going to make that character go through. #it's so hard for me to work on it haha. #that's why i haven't worked on it for a bit (also bc of me not being in the mood be able to write like. 30000+ or something words) #i care so much about how feelings come across in my fics. #and i truly. deeply hope that it's accurate and strikes a chord w some people. #anyway. uh. im gonna go continue working on my d4dj fic haha.