#ur girl is sinking back into her classic hollywood and musical theatre roots i fear

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the stanley donen gene kelly vincente minnelli fred astaire influences in this movie are so immediately potent i'm losing my mind it really says something about me that i've watched like a dozen movies in two weeks and the two that hit me hardest are the one about the *checks notes* real life musician from the late 50s-70s where i knew the basic facts and big hits and tragic ending going in yet still attached so much to the human aspect of the story and *checks again* the romantic musical that intentionally riffs on old hollywood and the illusory draw yet necessity of dreams and is bound to be heartbreaking

#and before these two the one that got me most last year was ttb where i also knew the real story and heartbreaking ending #and in fact already knew the music itself and yet it still both shattered and consoled my heart and felt like a revelation #it's that they're all about art and music and humanity and passion and the art of making art #ur girl is sinking back into her classic hollywood and musical theatre roots i fear #i'm unwell #ironically my feelings for these movies is actually proof that i'm very firmly returning to myself #myself is just unwell <3 #i have one small complaint but i shan't voice it #also i have not slept but we're pretending it's fine. #jess.mess