#wannat cry just thinking about it

[torunarigha]

so... i’m definitely going to be in germany in the fall :D

#life update time lol : #kinda stupidly privileged to be able to say this #but my back up school that accepted me has a deadline to decide this monday #and i STILL haven't heard if i got the scholarship to study in germany #and it all came to a head and i realized i really really really want to go to this one program in germany #and going to this other school in north america just felt wrong #so i think i'm going to decline their offer... and just go to germany no matter what happens #i can't believe im genuinely throwing away this amazing opportunity but my gut just wasn't feeling it #im so lucky to have family thats like 'hey if you want to move continents we can help you to make it happen' #wannat cry just thinking about it #(granted having family in germany already helps a whole lot lol) #but yeah crossing my fingers that i do actually get this scholarship AND get into the program i really like #a lot of things to fall into place gotta start looking into back up plans LMAO but at the very least i'll be closer to my dad :') #and be able to watch hertha live :DDDDDDDDD #(i'd be lying if it wasn't at least a bit of a motivating factor but trust me its not the whole thing haha0 #to delete #wow tmi with mia hour amirite #<-- old tag still appropriate