“they’re called blinks bc if you blink you lose interest” -my boyfriend choosing violence

“i feel like bts has ruined many happy companies” -my boyfriend, unprovoked

I have this image in my head of Glorfindel standing on a balcony. Big sheer drapes wafting in a breeze that covers the doorway. No door. And he is like melancholy just looking out. And Finrod approaches him. And he is subdued but smiley. And they talk. But like thats all I see. Its like a silent movie with no subtitles. And I cant stand it whemy stupid brain does this.

I have nwver written Finrod. Frankly I jated his character the first time I read the Silm. For many reasons. Now not so much but still. Idk I guess this is a vent because I cant write this shippy scene of Maedhros and Rog dancong at celegorm’s small begetting say thing. And thas t is also pissing me off. Because again I see the scene in vivid detail. No sound. And when I try to write it my brain haywires and attacks me with bad things. And like bites me for trying? Hell idk. Im so messed up. Idk why i even try :/

BABE!!!!

It continues

Instead of editing the fic I’m posting today I’m writing for my fic that’s gonna be posted in a couple weeks lmao 😭

third straight day of unspeakable rage…

sorry that i can never decide if i want to re-make or not <3 i know nobody cares but it really does feel stupid to make gifs for like…10 notes when it feels like half the people hate me and also like… it feels dumb to edit pictures n shit when unedited ones get more notes. and i KNOW that sounds whiny and stupid and it IS and it’s a stupid website but it just all keeps building up to this being a waste of time and pointless and yeah whatever. nobody is going to read this i hope you didn’t <3 

Me: *asks my brother to tell me a story while I wait for my dad again*

My brother: *has me create a character for story*

Me: *enjoying the story so far* *also I question why he has my character waiting/hiding in an exposed area*

My brother: “because your character is dumb”

💀💀💀

what’s the point of me having a sign on my door that says I’m in a meeting if people are going to ignore it?

i only have beef with ONE person and theyre not on tumblr anymore please stop sending me nosy ass questions

someone will say im ugly meanwhile they look like the doodle every 12 year old posted on instagram in 2014 of a white girl with long brown hair in a sweater.

Things someone needs to teach me how to do: Shut up.

thinking about going live who would hop on 👀

Oooooo I SHOULD NOT have looked back through my phone to delete pics. Just found a bunch of old screenshots and that shit was triggering as fuuckk…

Ok last time I swear 💋😅

(Please don’t r*blog)

i caved i changed the lipstick again 

Had to add lipstick now I feel like myself 😌👄

(Please don’t r*blog)

I caved I had to put on lipstick 😓👄

One nice thing about zoom meetings is that when you can tell your weak-ass self is going to burst into tears in the middle of one, you can turn off your video and microphone and just text chat instead lol.