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#watched the most recent quintin reviews vid which like yeah I went in with expectations of the content
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So funny how trauma will just kick you in the fucking teeth with the most random triggers.
#ra speaks
#personal
#watched the most recent quintin reviews vid which like yeah I went in with expectations of the content
#and it’s not like I actively avoid stuff that depicts/discusses abuse I’ve been going to therapy long enough to know my most sensitive
#triggers and stuff. but…idk something abt when he got to the drake bell section just set me off something fierce.
#I’m all nerves and stress and self loathing/misplaced guilt from my own past bullshit
#like brain can we please cool it we’ve been over this for years why you freaking the fuck out now? (I mean. logically. I know why
#and how trauma works and that I’m just having emotional flashbacks but still. ugh.)
#brain please be real niceys to me I have a meeting in an hour we cannot be having a panic attack.
#you’re safe you’re good it wasn’t your fault etc etc can we please go back to being an adult more than a decade past all that? please???
#survived my meeting so I’m gonna vent abt this a bit more bc. let’s be real.
#I don’t rememember a solid 3 years of my adolescence and it fucks w me sometimes.
#I remember things before 4th grade. I remember 4th grade. then bam I’m in 8th going to high school. and like
#I know logistically what happened. I know emotionally I hated/was so fucking scared of [redacted] until I finally left that fucking school.
#it’s just. frustrating bc if I remembered maybe I’d feel more justified letting myself get upset abt it. but I don’t so suck it up buttercup
#it probably wasn’t even that bad if you don’t actually remember it so pull it together.
#hell for all you know it had nothing to do with [redacted] and you were just on bad meds/depressed and forgot three solid years of your life
#after meeting [redacted] <- I am not convincing myself unfortunately.
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