#were its obvious that she does not want to give me money. that she willngly signed up for a program gov to give me.

[caruliaa]

getting soo bitter hearing abt tswift tour presale codes on the uk store bc ik i wont be able to go but i also know that its not impossible like if i somehoww move out before the tour than maybe but itll have to be late in the year for that and my only current plan is to maybe bye tickets and sell them online if i cant make it but it might be to expensive for that and also ik after moving im immediately going to like. iv neve had ANY genuine independance before you think i have enough of a hold on myself to go to a fucking concert idk idk but i WANNA GO I WANNA GO SO FUCKING BADLY YOU HAVE NO IDEA IV NEVER EVEN BEEN TO A CONCERT OR ANYTHING HALFWAY CLOSE BEFORE BC IV BEEN SO CONTROLLED MY WHOLE LIFE AND I JUST HAD TO BE STUPID ENOUGH TO HAVE MY FAVE MUSICIAN BE ONE OF THE MOST POPULAR EVER AND GETTING TICKETS FOR HER WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE AND IL LBE BEATEN OUT BY PEOPLE WHOVE SEEN HER LIKE 10 TIMES ALREADY AND THEN WONT EVEN BE ABLE TO GO BECAUSE ILL PROB STILL BE STUCK LIVING WITH MY PARENTS BY THEIR RULES FOREVER OR i;; BARLEY HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO EAT EACH WEEK LET ALONE GO OUT AND SEE A CONCERT OMFG !!!!!

#anywayy. got the presale codes from the website ahaha #also just had a. interesting text convo with my mother #were its obvious that she does not want to give me money. that she willngly signed up for a program gov to give me. #and has been willingly continuing to put money towards. #like i was just like 'can you please schedule the meeting about it' bc she keeps forgetting too #and she was like 'okay but why do you care sm why are you in such a hurry' like !! hello its like. money im legally entitled to hello ?!?!! #maybe if u didnt suck sm i wldnt be desperate for every resource to escape you !!!!!!! #and i was like 'i just dont want it to be forgotten about because its important' (WHICH IS ALSO FUCKING TRUE !!!) #and she was like 'its not going to be forgotten what do you mean by that its not gonna disappear' which. #obvs not what i meant by forgotten but she 'didnt get' me explaining it -_- (quote marks bc clear gaslighting attempt from mama dearest) #i just dropped it and she said that shell schedule it when she has the chance and i dont thinks shes super suspicious of me but. ugh. #i rly hope she does schedule it and doesnt just forget. ill get my support teachers involved idc !!!!!!!!! #ugh whatever . remind me to call the bank this week to have my acct no long a minors one #so i can start a paypal and do commisons and just general other work online and stuff #make some stupid money to move out of this stupid house and actually have some stupid independence and get my stupid life started #actually ill open tips on this blog idc. if u delight sm in 30 image bingus and being kermited to my girl gimmie money !!!!!! <3 #(/lh u dont have to ofc dw) #whatever i just get so stressed abt this stuff. like i shld be ig its smth worth being stressed abt but just. idk. im kinda sick of it #can i please be a Normal Teenager now and be able to go to concerts and drive and stay out late with my friends #whatever #flappy rambles #vent