#what else. hot dogs. hate them. i will eat them on ocassion but not something i like.

[pizzapizzadickz]

Random fun facts b4 bed! Whoo!!!

I never rly realized just how severe my pickiness is. Bc. I'll eat anything. I love food. I love trying food too. Buuuut, if im at home I won't eat many foods. Lettuce, most raw veggies, I like chips but hate how they get stuck in my teeth (i avoid a lot of similar foods), and i hate it when I toast things too much and all the skin on the roof of your mouth just says "im outta here"). There's probably more but this is an example. Oh also i hate food touching (I'm fine with it when it's at restaurants tho bc that's how it's supposed to be so it's okay). And when I do go out to eat (and try something new), I generally like picking it out beforehand or I take a while to decide everything I want. I love that places have online menus now bc I often just decide using that.

Also I've been stimming a lot lately. Probably bc ive been tired. But I wonder why that tends to cause it? Probably bc it's a self soothing behaviour. How neat.

#diary #personal #disordered eating #ahh. but yeah. i hate eating mixed frozen veggies or shit like fruit salad. #like. i dont mind it if i combine it or cook it a certain way #but i absolutely hate just random crap thown together. #heres a list of some more specific foods and reasons actually #so lettuce. ive hated it since ive been a child. probablu bc its bitter? it tastes weird #i dont like uncooked veggies. carrots are a prime example. they crumble apart and end up just everywhere in your mouth. dont like. #i dont like unripe fruit. but i love the ripe kind. #AND THIS IS WHERE A PROBLEM STARTS. DO I CHANCE BUYING FRUIT NOT KNOWING WHAT ILL GET. NOPE. so i dont eat fruit much anymore... #i dont really like meat all that much. especially red meat like beef. specifically stakes n the like bc it hurts to chew for so long. #i also dont like chicken or porkchops bc theyre bland n suck (my parents dont season them well) #what else. hot dogs. hate them. i will eat them on ocassion but not something i like. #i dont like pinapple bc its too strong but i like it cooked. #i used to hate porridge but like it now bc if i dont use milk products like butter i can eat it without it hurting #i cant eat ribs. idk why. i wish i could bc theyre tasty but they hurt to eat and upset my stomach. #i used to hate bread bc i once ate one that tasted moldly. but now i love it especially buttered bread #what else... i think thats it for the most part? im allergic to a bunch of stuff too (actually theyre just sensitivity) #the stuff im sensitive to only makes my throat itch but it includes: almonds. pecans. wallnuts. sunflower seeds. mushrooms. #the rind on brie cheese. alfalfa sprouts (maybe due to mold on them or something???? idk why i have this one) #oh blue cheese. i think thats it? i used to have more that came and went. like honey for example. #im also really lactose intollerant #im also really picky in the way i eat and i have a hard time making myself food bc of low energy n srufd #like today i wanted a tuna or salmon sandwich. but i settled for a pb&j one bc my hands hurt and it seemed like a lot of work #i just couldnt rhink of making it up so i didnt!!! #but on another note i actually really love foods with strong flavours. like spicy foods. or smokey. strong cheese. etc #my eating habits could really be better though. i didnt have any veggies (again) today. #ahhh i do worry thats why ive been taking vitamins #its bc i just dont eat the right foods ever. like. most of my diet currently is cashews and bread.