#when i have uncountable blood clots the size of nickels and quarters and larger every single period

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i hate that the medical industry doesn't take reproductive health seriously when you have a uterus/ovaries. i hate that the only solution for 99% of issues is birth control unless you visually have an immediate complication, and even then sometimes the answer is still just birth control. i hate that companies don't let you have paid time off. i hate that asking for help is seen as weak or that you're lazy for being unable to do it all alone.

#im going to fucking throw up from both pain + stress i am so fucking angry #why! do i have to try and convince doctors they should do a laparoscopy on me to check for endo #when i am left unable to even take care of myself on my worst days #when i have uncountable blood clots the size of nickels and quarters and larger every single period #when i have pain from my ribs to my knees #when its been shown that there is a connection between my connective tissue disorder + endometriosis #when i have a family history of endometriosis #and even if i can!! convince the drs!! theres no point! #bc it's just my partner and i and our kid and he cant take off work to help me recover #and meanwhile in recovery I'd be completely unable to tend to a toddler #so literally what is the fucking point!!!!! #i want to fucking scream and scream and scream #mine #rambles #will probably delete this later #im just #so fucking pissed rn