#when im hanging out with my friends like the body dysmorphia and jisy feeling like absolutely huge next to my friends

[yoongisautumnleaves]

i need to empty my brain a little so im hear to scream

#so in the summer on a trip me and 2 of my friends were talking about like pretty privilege and stuff and most of my friends are conveniently #attractive and like they are aware of that and bla bla we were just walking down the street talking about it bc it had to do with how pretty #ppl can get away with being rude and like not very nice bc they are pretty so ppl just assume they r good ppl - we were talking about a #friend who anyways i am bad at telling stories this context is not needed #so my bestie was just like ya i see like how people treat me and then how they treat T (me) #and it’s been eating away at me FOR MONTHS bc yes i am aware that im not conventionally attractive #and im not skinny but like it just made me feel so fucked up and i DIDNT realize in the moment bc i was processing #what we were talking about but since then ive just been like even more anxious and self conscious whenever i have to go out anywhere and #when im hanging out with my friends like the body dysmorphia and jisy feeling like absolutely huge next to my friends #has been driving me insane and i feel like my ED is lurking and i just constantly am thinking about how i look #and how i look compared to everyone whether i know them or not and im literally getting so anxious even typing this out #and i know like I KNOW she did not mean in that way but did she really have to say that like why did you bring me into it #tw ed #i guess? #tw body image