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#while simultaneously being doomed to never receive the love i crave and provide for others
anjukoneko
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2 years
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I strongly believe being truly, actually loved for once in my fucking life would fix/heal a good portion of what's wrong with me, possibly even the majority. Tragic that it looks like that'll never happen lmao.
#guess I'll just be fucked up and broken and insane until i die
#I'm so emotionally drained and distraught rn sorry guys
#it's probably because i started a new medication a couple of days ago tbh
#I'm rather hurt at how my bestie has been treating me
#actually im extremely hurt with how most of the important people in my life have been treating me
#I'm tired of always being enthusiastic about their lives and asking questions and building them up
#and doing them favors and going out of my way to help and doing sweet/thoughtful things to help ease their daily burdens
#and not even being met with a FRACTION of that energy back. nor even any real appreciation
#and yeah i dont do these things to get anything in return. i do them because i love these people and i want to show them that
#but yall it HURTS being taken for granted in nearly every. fucking. relationship/friendship
#and at a certain point it most definitely feels like I'm being used
#but the sad thing is people are so self absorbed they probably dont even see it
#it depresses me but i feel like my only purpose on earth is to lift up and inspire those around me
#while simultaneously being doomed to never receive the love i crave and provide for others
#why am i always loving others? why am i so full of love if no one will love me back?
#why do i have to suffer this way? what kind of excruciating divine punishment is this?
#am i truly so repulsive and undesirable? truly so uninteresting and boring? worthless? my only value is to serve others?
#anju speaks
#venting
#dumb personal shit
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