#why does it matter. idk. i had to update my [REDACTED] today and i got sick to my stomach at the thought of anyone going through it

[ghosttoasties]

potholes are so bad here and i'm convinced even if i move again things won't improve because the state loves cops too much this is the third accident we've been in the last couple months where we've got somewhere to be and then we can't because the car has to get fixed 😭 i wish public transit was better and didn't take a literal half day just to get anywhere out of county.

#pasta jargon #i need to turn something in and i'm nervous asf so now i am in mi thoughts #when stuff like this happens it really sucks because i literally cant explain why im late. there's no forgiveness or sympathy with it. #nights like this I have to open up the ol' Notion and read thru my fics like i've never seen them before #cus no lie i can't even remember when i wrote them i can't believe i wrote half the shit i have on there. it's an archive at this point #it's been like two years and even 10 for some of them i wish my nerves didn't eat me up so much i'd love to post them someday #but tbh i feel like only me & 3 other people even care about that ship. but to those three.......one day i swear. i got u. #i feel like i'd post more and about my life more if i knew no one i knew (expect the tumblr moots) would see any of it #why does it matter. idk. i had to update my [REDACTED] today and i got sick to my stomach at the thought of anyone going through it #i've had rumors spread about me before i dont need this again #if i could start fresh i would in a heartbeat. i'm too used to it