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#would be hellishly draining for them to expirience this and attempt to force somethibg that isnt there
sparkelingspectres
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7 months
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#god the suspense and guilt is just eating at me like a hamster to drywall i cant sleep
#i dont want them to see this and yet I simultaneously really do
#vecause on one hand i feel absolutely selfish for feeling like this
#but if we're in a friendship that isnt mutually beneficial for everybody
#i.e. them possibly feeling like they *have* to include me in things and telling me im their best friend when it isnt true which id imagine
#would be hellishly draining for them to expirience this and attempt to force somethibg that isnt there
#and in turn me feeling like im last picked. like they dont mean what they say and theyre only trying to prevent conflict and hurt feelings
#by continuing to treat me as an equal in the group when i may not be
#so like for real if my deelings are correct please do not hesitate to just tell me.
#a friendship that isnt satisfactory to both parties benefits no one
#i personally love being friends as we all are but something just doesnt feel quite natural anymore. like theyre forcing themselves
#and i would just like to know where i stand so things can be adjusted accordingly
#i promise i wouldnt be mad or hold it against anyone or think any less of anyone if this was the case
#i would just like to have an honest civil discussion privately if there was anything to discuss so that things could just be resolved
#because ive veen feeling thus off and on for months and its killing i just want to know
#and im perfectly fine and prepared to possibly hear an answer i don't like but i just want this feeling to be alleviated one way or another
#so just tell me the truth un-sugarcoated i dont like feeling like im trapping everyone in something they arent invested it
#id rather hear them tell me they all want to spend less time with me or possibly even drift away from the friendship altogether
#than be just dragged on along on every occasion we hang out like an annoying sibling they were forced to bring
#yknow?
#anyways im just venting and ranting about my wacked out feelings who knows if any of this is true or not
#but if it is even in the slightest please just talk to me<3 it would be better in the long run for all involved
#vent
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