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this isn't like. bothering me in the way that would accept advice so i'm gonna throw it on a tumblr post lmao

anyway. man. i Know i need to get better about not getting irritated with myself about having needs but i'm like. so used to the thought pattern that breaking it is taking even longer than i thought it would. and like... i was never expecting it to be instant. i have thought this way for a large portion of my life. it is a problem i have only ever jokingly addressed, bcus by its nature, it hates being addressed. acknowledging that denying my needs as "annoying" rather than a vital part of being happy and thriving requires admitting that i have needs, which... is the original problem again.

but jesus fucking christ. i've been having to outsource caring about myself and deflecting questions i don't have answers to bcus the idea of taking care of myself and actually admitting i'm having feelings -- esp negative feelings, like stress or sadness -- feels like it grates against every bone in my body.

and like... i'm thankful for what i Have done. i've managed to ask people to check in on me sometimes to make sure i'm eating and i successfully identified both when i needed to go sit in the quiet and when sitting in the quiet was doing me more harm than good recently.

but i still feel bad admitting Out Loud when i'm having a rough time and i've been struggling with the same problem for like a Month now bcus fixing it would require Admitting I'm Having The Problem and *gasp* asking someone else for active help. which, of course, makes me want to grind my bones into dust still, bcus that's far more than "it's nice to sit with my friends while they're talking bcus i can passively absorb their energy without asking any extra of them" and therefore makes me feel like i'd be Imposing. which is fucking stupid, but hey, mental illness is like that.

#little rock.txt #venting #if u live with me. i'm working on it #it's one of those things that like. i have to do the work around fixing it #or i'll instead do stuff to make it Look like i've fixed it until i think i can get away with doing it again lmao #is that healthy? no! absolutely fucking not! #which is why u know. i'm trying to fix it the Actual way. as much as it sucks in the meantime #unfortunately self-sabotage runs deep in my bones and it takes on many different forms #but this is one of the more Present ones so i'm trying to kick its ass now that like. i'm in a different environment #.... i need to get around to getting health insurance so i can get a therapist again.

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Amazing forced perspective mosaic siding.

Photo via Jamie's Garden Shop

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The Smoke Mines of Damien

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don’t think this rap talk means i’ve taken my eyes off of rafah.

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Folks have got to understand that they probably aren't messed up by some Secret Big Trauma that they just can't remember; but rather by a million tiny microtraumas that they do mostly remember but don't even register as traumatic because nobody actually understood that these things would cause trauma, much less stack on each other over the years.

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#nah i'm in retail babeeyyy #sometimes i'll be opening or doing shipment and i'll put smth on but it's Very temporary

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Rapper Macklemore posts on Instagram a song in support of Palestine called “HIND’S HALL” that will be on streaming platforms soon and all proceeds will go to UNRWA

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Please follow, share, and interact with Madleen @palestinianmother's videos on tiktok to help bring more awareness to her campaign. Here is the link to her tiktok page:

Please also share her gfm link and donate if you can:

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Here's a website where Palestine GoFundMes are vetted and shared that you can send out to people. The url is gazafunds.com

Easy to use and simple. Just share the site whenever someone asks for GFMs for Palestine.

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getting second hand embarrassment on the dash tonight

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Hello, I want you to help me. My family is in danger. I saw you helping people.

Please I don't know anyone who can publish for us and share our story I saw you by chance Please share my story on your profile and tell people about it Family consists of 7 members and we are now in Gaza we can't get out Please help us post our link gofund.me/7489c83c

Thank you so much for reaching out.

To everyone else, another legit GoFundMe to support!

Ahmad's family is raising funds to leave Gaza and they have not raised nearly enough funds to leave. This family urgently needs help. They are only at €1,172 out of €70,000!!

Please donate and share!

(ID in Alt)

The Turk family is stuck in Gaza under threat of bombardment as well as sickness and famine. Their lives and their home were stripped away from them by the occupation. Any help you can give would go a long way.

You can check in with Ahmad on his tumblr @ahmadturk00 and twitter @/ahmadturk_

Aseel Al Turk also frequently posts updates on the situation on her twitter @/aseelalturkk .

Below is a video of Aseel describing the Turk family's situation as well:

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the statement "being ace and or aro is a complex spectrum, and putting fictional aro/acespec people in ships isnt inherently bad because plenty of ppl on the spectrum still have relationships and experience certain forms of attraction" can exist alongside "aros and aces are allowed to be upset when allos ship canonically aro/ace characters in a way that clearly doesnt take their identity into consideration"

both r true

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well now i need a Dungeon Meshi/The Adventure Zone crossover comic with a cultural exchange program where one side brings healthy, meticulous fantasy!Japanese cuisine and the other side brings the most atrocious processed fantasy!American garbage with an ingredients list full of arcane curses

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harrow, your hair's getting longer.

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