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I’m happier than ever 🙃

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HAPPIER THAN EVER dir. Billie Eilish (2021)

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“I thought you would've grown eventually, but you proved me wrong...”

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Love is so short. Forgetting is so long.

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i’m a soldier who’s returning half her weight

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we began as dutiful soldiers

clear lines drawn

clear opposition

naivety

but war never stays clean

soon our black and white turned to greys

yet on we fought

neither of us willing to admit

that our memories were long corrupted with beliefs

weary, I raised my white flag

I let you convince me I was wrong

grasping at any way for peace

months later you wore the pain as a badge of honor

picking new battles for the sake of remembering

for the sake of power

and I paid reparations for a war I never wanted to fight

but even when the nurse of silence begins to ease my wounds

I still pay my debt

flashbacks tainted by confusion

memories corrupted by hurt

how do I know

who won the war

when neither side can agree on the casualties

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back on my olivia rodrigo bullshit

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Maybe you’re not who I thought you were

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“If you’re not dating to get married, you’re dating to breakup.”

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Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Many of them have good intentions. Most are simply toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren't inherently bad people, but they aren't the right people for us.

Daniell Koepke

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“Can we go back to the days our love was strong?”

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Day 1151... idek. New count Day 2

I feel so fucking selfish

I knew from the beginning that you would fall harder than me.

And then you did.

And then I fell so much slower, so inconsistently

But I couldn’t let you go.

Because I’m selfish, and I hate the pain

Why the fuck do I avoid everything do damn much

How do I learn to be smarter than this

Because before it didn’t hurt others that much

Before, it was just my problem

But by dating you, by letting you be vulnerable with me, I made it your problem too

And I hurt you

I hurt you so much

And I am so, so sorry

You don’t want to hear it, but you didn’t deserve me

And that’s in the way of you not deserving the things I put you through

No

I didn’t deserve you

And I tried not to hurt you, but in doing so, I ended up making things shit for the both of us

Why the hell am I so selfish

Why the hell am I such a coward

I couldn’t even call it quits when the time came, you did

I’m such a coward

You deserve so much more than what I could give you

And you said I’d didn’t have to be that way

Sure

That’s fine

But you have to realize that I have no ability to choose how I feel

And yes, love is a choice, but love is also build on understanding, and I sure as hell didn’t feel like I understood you by the end

I thought I did

But it turns out you had me figured out

You just hoped I would prove you wrong

I’m sorry

I did love you

Just not in the way you loved me

And you deserve so much more than that

#thepoemsyoullneversee #letter to b

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I really suck at letting go

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#rupi kaur #nm

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Day 423

Dear next girl,

Luck you

He’s a great guy, he really is

He’s kind and smart and caring

Compassion and love

Such a gentleman

So good with parents, so respectful

And so fun-loving

You guys will go on so many adventures

So many memories will be made

The moments that try to satisfy the wild of his heart

Pray that they do

That energy that makes him so magnetic also makes him restless

Never satisfied

Pray that you are enough

Because I wasn’t

And it sucks to know that the person you care for most doesn’t want to talk to you

To know that you’re not a high enough priority anymore

And it didn’t always used to be this way, we made it work

But that’s over now

We’re too different

And I’m done clinging to him hoping that something will change

I’m worth too much for that

Because I am enough

He can’t be my standard anymore

#mine #hurt #i