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Also, should I get alcohol to play this game or is The Tearsmith a serious movie that I can take seriously? 😅 Ehh, I'll probably get some anyway but here's an idea if you have trouble watching this genre. 🥂

I don't tend to judge movies based on scores, but I still don't know why this one got one so low so I'm preparing for the worst. 💀

#the tearsmith

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I've already come across so many clips, showing different scenes, that I honestly can't grasp how they'll all be parsed together into one regular-length movie. Looking forward to seeing that unfold. 😮 I'll post about it afterward if there are bits that call for it and it doesn't just leave me flushed for one reason or another. 😳 I hope it rains then like it's been raining today and the past few days, so I can be more fully immersed. But I'll try to enjoy it in any case. ✨🎟️🎞️🥤🍿🍫

#the tearsmith

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The clips that have been coming up on my feed are making me want to watch this sooner rather than later.

I think I can put it on my schedule for May, Saturday 4th, at night time. Probably after everyone and their mother already watched it and reacted to it, but still. I don't feel ready for it yet, not even theoretically, but maybe I will be then. 😨 I don't know if I'll be suffering the most from watching no-ships happening, from getting second-hand embarrassment, or from it turning out to be too tragic after all. But I'll muster the courage because I'm already curious. 🤔

Also emphasizing in my mind that they're not biologically related, the actors are adults, and it's just a movie, 'cause... eh... 😵

#the tearsmith #Youtube

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A lovely cat finally having a box to sit in, feel safe, and be sheltered from the weather and other awful dangers outside. 🥺💝 A certain must.

Tool: Leonardo.AI

#ai art

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AI is getting scarily good at generating videos. But you still never know when and where it'll majorly mess up - and how. So gotta watch out for that!

Tool: Leonardo.AI

#ai art

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The Tearsmith

It's as though the neurons in my brain are asking for me to put on more movies! 🧬🧬🧠🧬🧬

This one got a bad score from the public, but it does seem to fit the current mood. (I wonder if it was strategically released around this date to catch people in tortured poet states with TTPD. 🤭) In any case, though, while I'm not averse to watching more films/series, I'm unable to at the moment. Plenty is still going on for me, in and out, to be able to sit still for long and properly take them in. But the teaser and the trailer were already something! 🤯 I'll queue it for the not-so-far-away future...

#the tearsmith #Youtube

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My feed again putting films/series in front of me. I honestly don't know what really happened here and edits aren't always what they seem to imply. That girl looks pretty oblivious to the other guy, though. She might have to look back and re-read signs. 🙈🙉🙊 Or he's just mad at this guy for some other reason and fan's wishfulness is making it into something else. 😅 FIRE either way. 🌡🔥

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Might as well post the whole set here now, since I brought it up elsewhere already. Generated a while ago. I was going for something that could resemble my own space but it ended up taking me elsewhere! I think I used the keyword cozy. And of course, neon signs. Luv the vibes! Should eventually post officially about tech on my main site? 🤔😮 I do know I'll be bringing up tech stuff that's related to what I'm for in any case (probably mostly about applications and AI). Only as far as I can cover it, though. Tool: Leonardo.AI (likely?)

#ai art

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#// there's still good in the world 😭💗 #(reblogging from op 'cause mutual on my dash may be low key) #unsorted

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May have taken this color obsession too far. But at least it makes sense! (And colors don't cease to intrigue and fascinate me.)

I wish I had been more specific and precise with the designs of each throne and what's around them, so it is all more fitting and it says more about their realms and what they rule over, but these are only vaguely prompted (for now).

How did this coloring of kingdoms even happen, though? Maybe black, pink, and yellow were already reflected and evident for their respective representatives and blue came along like, "Oooh, nice colors!" Then it rolled from there. 🤭

One is missing, though...

You know how in anime there's usually an episode where they all go to the beach? Couldn't leave that out! Some would consider it "filler" but it's there for relief from the tension and also as an opportunity for the characters to be restored and have different dynamics and sides of them showing.

So there's a whole other kingdom there! Why's it pink, though? I don't know, I don't make these rules (I only portray and describe them). It just happened to be. 😋

Tool: Leonardo.AI

#ai art

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5 ⭐️

#unsorted #(reblogging from OP 'cause mutual on my dash may be low key) #// kitty looks like it's still trying to figure stuff out 😅 #// determined though!

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Now I'm supposed to do that thing where I post unrelated stuff to bury previous posts... But I don't have anything else right now. Soon, though.

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All jokes aside, I was being 100% honest when I said that I was done with romantic dramas and relieved I wasn't watching any more. But then THIS happened to my feed and... I'm sorry but: best kiss.

And I know, I know. It's delusional, this isn't reality. But she looks so devastated and he looks so caring and... Aaahhh!!! How he holds her, too. It's been on repeat and I love it so much... 😭❤️‍🩹 But now I gotta detach and let go. Pretend like I didn't just witness heaven. And focus on getting myself and my life together. Just family, friends, work and coworking... At least for a while. It's hard while wanting to be high on love, but I'll somehow manage. SIGH.

#unsorted #// out-of-context clip

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Long ago, in the Underground...

(A BioCyberPunk Tale)

There came a time, in a place not many hear of these days, when underground cities were actively built. Mostly hidden from view, many of their inhabitants enjoyed a sense of seclusion and anonymosity. They could simply exist.

This, for better and for worse, allowed them to profoundly explore themselves and their surroundings. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Run experiments, too. But unfortunately, among them, unhinged, deranged, and vile individuals mingled. Accompanied by masses of weak or vulnerable minds that they could access, exploit and mould. Making it so that what could have been benign discovery soon turned into a twisted nightmare. Dire situations arose as the communities within began to corrode.

One of these communities was composed of young and curious intellectuals in search of their true nature and the answers to life's deepest and greatest questions. They stood as neighboring leaders in their fields. One of them more feisty, witty and clever than you might imagine being ahead in the game without failing to practice solidarity and collaboration with peers. And though they could be wildly different from each other in certain aspects, they all shared in common an intolerance for what seemed incoherent and incongruent. Shallow and nonsensical explanations wouldn't do. Uninformed opinions weren't taken too kindly either. They'd exchange data with each other, engaging in discussions and debates, in order to expand their horizons and polish their worldviews. So, by merely their own traits, they consequently were the liars' most dangerous threat and enemy.

Yet, sadly, lies can be manufactured faster than the truth can be dug out. And when packaged in even more lies to make them enticing, they also spread and are welcomed much more readily than meticulously articulated (and often harsh) truths would. The odds were against this crew. And while being so young, there was only so much that they could do or knew how to do. Especially when faced and caught off-guard by more than one unspeakably wicked being.

Fights broke between them as they looked for approaches they could agree on and their ideas were in conflict. The growing falsehood, and the poison that came with it, was impacting their work. But what's worse, it was negatively affecting the lives of those they had been helping with it. Something had to be done, but protecting everyone was already a lost cause under their circumstances. At some point, it became evident that they could only protect their own clarity.

Older experts in vicinity later joined in, contributing more knowledge and wisdom to them. Basically assisting in restoring and maintaining sanity.

However, after their symbiotic environment, consisting of mostly amicable banter and trades, was destroyed, and how tiresome (not to mention scarring) enduring such an ordeal was, it was never the same again. Resuming as before was not possible. Not desirable either as it proved unsustainable amidst the ill-willed. They would have to take numerous measures to prevent similar tragedies from happening again - and ironically, that is one of the biggest takeaways they got out of it, witnessing multiple forms of behavior, how it harms and how it heals.

The cities continued to be in decline, to where they can be called dead despite a few that remain wandering them. But life doesn't start nor end there...

Tool: Leonardo.AI

#ai art

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Hi! I came across this post of yours /post/179222467392/you-once-said-that-you-are-not-a-religios-person and i was wondering what the things are in Buddhist philosophy that u dont agree with? And also how did u manage to tap into the oneness belief? I heard ppl often get there thru ego death by using meditation or psychedelic drugs. Lately I have been into this topic and into getting into that oneness belief and you seem to know a great deal about philosophy!

If you're new here, philosophy is one of my majors. I learned religious philosophy as part of my studies in the history of human thought, so people sometimes ask me about these topics.

- To be clear, I am sympathetic to Buddhist beliefs and I think the religion has a lot to offer people. Buddhist philosophy underwent a lot of change over the centuries as the religion spread through very different cultures. When you dive deep into the scriptures, you'll find some truly wild ideas about multiverses and supernatural beings. It's hard to get on board with those ideas if you are a rational and scientifically minded person.

At this point, there are several different branches of Buddhism that sometimes hold very contradictory beliefs, yet they all still call themselves "Buddhist" (contrast this with Abrahamic religions that splintered three ways). Such contradictions are possible because Buddhist beliefs are almost designed to be impervious to critique. On one hand, this allows for great diversity of thought. On the other hand, it can make the whole thing seem nonsensical.

For example, I don't agree with how Buddhists conceptualize and characterize the human ego. However, as soon as I raise those objections to these Buddhists over here, some Buddhists over there will argue that there are different levels of understanding and many different ways of looking at the ego depending on how far you've gotten in your Buddhist practice. They simultaneously accept and dismiss my objections. Thus, if you want to be Buddhist, you basically have to accept this sort of incoherence and perhaps dismiss it as illusory or the result of small-mindedness.

At the end of the day, whether I agree or disagree with the beliefs is inconsequential, because no objection is really real or pointing to anything permanent. But when all your thoughts and feelings and behaviors can easily be dismissed as unreal, what happens to your life? Whether or not your life is objectively real, it still seems real to you and you have to live it, and the suffering you experience feels real. Can you dismiss it as just ephemera? There has always been an internal debate in the religion about whether one should be apart from or a part of the material world, and I don't think this kind of ambiguity helps people who are already struggling psychologically.

- I guess you could say I came to the belief in oneness first through intuition, then through science, then through philosophy. I think I mentioned before that, as a child, I genuinely believed that everything in the universe was imbued with some form of consciousness (aka panpsychism). It's not an uncommon belief in children because the human mind has a tendency toward anthropomorphism. For example, I would wonder whether stepping on the sidewalk was hurting it. People had to reassure me that if the sidewalk had feelings, its feelings worked differently than human feelings, otherwise, the sidewalk would object in the same way I would to getting stepped on.

Most people grow up and forget about these silly notions, but I didn't. Psychologists say that normal infant development starts at oneness and evolves into individuality. I feel like the world tried to convince me that I'm this separate, discrete, individual being, but I just couldn't believe it. Separation has always felt to me like a very wrong way to be. Who is right, the psychologists or me? I don't know. Maybe a Buddhist would say we're both right and we're both wrong and that neither is seeing the bigger picture.

To me, it seems as though I was born believing in panpsychism because I don't remember a time when I didn't believe it, so there is no actual "origin story" or explanation as to how I came to the belief. If I am capable of consciousness, why wouldn't it be possible that everything else is as well? If I am capable of being conscious of others, shouldn't there be something out there conscious of me? And if consciousness exists everywhere in everything, isn't reality fundamentally relational? In order for these beliefs to stand, I had to possess the underlying belief that everything in the universe is somehow interconnected despite superficial appearances.

Then, I studied science in school and learned that all matter in the universe is made up of the same constituent elements. We are all stardust. At the atomic and quantum level, the boundaries we perceive between objects are difficult to define. As an adult, I studied philosophy and was introduced to the full gamut of human thought and learned that oneness was a key concept in many Eastern religions. Actually, several influential thinkers in the West (such as Jung) were heavily influenced by Eastern philosophy. Philosophical training helped me sharpen and refine my spiritual ideas.

- Yes, some people come to a belief in oneness through psychedelic drugs. Presumably (according to the limited research that has been done so far), these drugs help to "open up the mind" by restructuring it in such a way that expands one's perspective beyond one's narrow everyday ego concerns. Some people call this "ego death", but I don't like that term. As I mentioned above, I don't agree with Buddhist conceptions of the ego, which some secular Buddhists blithely reduce to "ego death = enlightenment". If you read my previous posts on this topic, you'll see why. I don't believe the ego is a bad thing or an enemy to be vanquished. I've seen how aspiring to ego death can go terribly wrong for people. And I've been exposed to different perspectives on ego and believe there are better ideas out there.

#takes #// life is so intriguing and fascinating 🤯🧬🌌

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getting to know my mutuals and followers: if you had to sing karaoke on the spot RIGHT NOW what would your go to song be

#unsorted #// HANSON - MMMBop #// not an april fools joke just some spring carefreeness before i go on my break 🎤🎶 #(reblogging from op 'cause mutual on my dash may be low key)

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Also, guys these days can't even send a text on time. Quite difficult to believe they'd break up their marriage for you. 😩 On that note, though... Please don't do anything too rash! If you're going to end a marriage, be it for the right reasons, not over a fleeting and trivial thing. I'm not a marriage counselor and it's not my place to be writing essays on this, so all I can give is my personal opinion. And that's only to end a marriage if it's truly not working and can't or won't be fixed. If all things considered, it'd be better off that way. So that whether or not things work out with the next person, and whether or not you remain alone, it won't be regrettable. In my case, that's how it was. We're on good terms and have no intention to be together again. However, we never had kids or formalized it through external means, so there wasn't as much to risk or lose as in other cases.

I suppose I should post this all together at some point. Proceed at your own risk, personal stuff about marriage and relationships...

The last time I messed with a married man, that didn't go well. At all.

It was as if one of the worst curses I've ever endured was bestowed on me. And I didn't even do it from a place of malice, of wanting to compete with their wife, wreck a home, and satisfy my ego in a whim. I genuinely had the stance of, "Well, if your marriage is not working, it's only human to fall for another person (it happened to me once). You should still do the responsible thing and take the steps to end it if you want to be with another person, though." But it seemed that they only wanted me to be their other woman. Which was heartbreaking at the time because I did end up liking them. Their work was magical to me but they turned out to be a Peter Pan. So I left.

Yet, ever since, many of the people who witnessed or heard about that would view and treat me poorly. I don't know if they were all awful people to begin with, or if they felt justified due to my apparent (yet not factual) disregard for that marriage, or both. But it was hell on Earth. I'm not taking that risk again. If not out of respect and consideration for a spouse I do not know, then out of fear of going through the same or similar again.

And I'm still not sure what to believe about it in terms of what's wrong and what's right. I'm the kind who doesn't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me, so I don't see breakups as the worst option (though they may be painful). But maybe it is indeed sinful to entertain the idea of being romantically involved with a married person - even if you're expecting it to happen the proper way, with both of you free to pursue this. Then again, life is complicated and all that.

In any case, I need at least 10 months single, not having to worry about whether or not I'm truly loved or am about to get my heart further destroyed. I've been operating for a while with a screwed-up heart anyway and that hasn't helped my chances either.