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29.07.2022

“There’s that one person you’ll never get over no matter how long it’s been.”

— Avinash Wandre (via thoughtkick)

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12.07.2022

𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐳 𝐖𝐞𝐢𝐬𝐬 〆 𝓜𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓲𝔃𝓸 𝓯𝓮𝓪𝓽.𝓒𝓥𝓝𝓞

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17.06.2022

Why do I get so sick with jealousy when he was never even mine to begin with.

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Feeling like a clown 🤡 every. Single. Time. After an episode passes and I realise I don't care and can't for the life of me remember why I got upset or what bothered me. It's literally like, new brain who dis.

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ive never been here before. but i know youve done this. and i know thats normal. but it still makes me jealous. and scared. i get nervous. thinking that youve had this conversation before with someone else. and thinking maybe im just the next one for you. i know its irrational. its not how i feel most of the time. but its this horrible creeping feeling. we talk about our future. but then i think. werent you planning this way with them?

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Falls irgendwer diesen Account noch aktiv verfolgt, ich lebe noch :D

Tut mir leid, dass ich jetzt schon so ewig nichts mehr von mir gegeben habe

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““there is a sickness developing deep within my heart because of what you did to me, and i worry that i will never recover.””

— a book that’ll be too hard to write

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“When you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.”

— Lisa Unger

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Stop romanticizing and glorifying mental illness

Mental illness is something that needs to be taken seriously. It’s not a joke, it’s not cool, it’s not cute, it’s not pretty, it’s not a trend, it’s not quirky.

Mental illnesses destroy lives, they make each day more difficult, they make you not have the strength to get out of bed, they make every single action seem like a huge effort, they make you want to sleep and never wake up, they make you feel lonely, they make life seem like a burden, they make you crazy, they make you want to kill yourself, they make you feel like you’ll never be happy again.

Please stop treating something as serious as mental health as a joke. Why would you want to suffer from something as terrible as depression? Mentally ill people suffer daily from something they didn’t ask to have, so enjoy that you have the privilege of being able to live without being constantly reminded by your own brain that you will never be “normal”.

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I’ve been awake for 20 minutes and I already regret waking up. 

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“Du hast ne Meinung über mich nach der dich keiner fragt”

— SDP

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“Will gegen die Wand schlagen bis mein Handgelenk Blau und blutig wird..”

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i feel like i died a very long time ago and now nothing thats happening is real

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Do you ever get in that no empathy state where it’s more than just no empathy and it’s almost like a disgust and anger for people who try to vent to you or involve you in their problems

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Die Stimmen in meinem scheiß Kopf fucken mich einfach nur noch ab.

-23.11.2020-

#schizo #stimmen im kopf #stimmen #depression #borderline #wut #frust #abgefuckt #genervt #agressiv #gefühle #krank #psychisch am ende #suizid #suizidgedanken #suizidal #FUCK