i feel so gross for not being able to do things aahahahaah what is wrong with meee :( i just cant find motivation to ever finish anything seriously, i cant bring myself to practice or create for fun. i want to draw for fun!! i just feel like i never get anywhere and now it’s too late to reach my goals.
on top of no self fulfillment, my actual commitments are killing me slowly. i don’t think i’ll get anything done nor will i ever enjoy dragging through this mud.
i need a therapist; someone not racist or ableist or transphobic . i just blelghh
might delete this later if i get too embarrassed but if you feel like shit right now or ever, just know you’re not alone and don’t kill yourself e er because then you’ll never see how cool you are after top surgery/therapy . amen