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A form of self harm is def saying "yes" when you mean "I am not sure" or even "no". Saying no is not supposed to hurt others, they are not supposed to be dissapointed in you. You don't owe people everything. You don't need to somehow make sure they stay in a good mood. Don't remove your own consent ever. If you mean no, say no every single time.

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I have a distinct memory of laying in my bed as a kid and wishing with all my heart that I would get hurt. That I would get into a bad car crash or I'd disappear. So my parents would cry and realize they didn't cherish me enough.

I find it sad that younger me thought she had to get hurt to feel loved.

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“Where do you see yourself in the future”

Bb I don’t. I do not. I do not see myself. There is no future.

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feeling like her rn

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My cheeks forget my hands are mine. But my brain doesn't. I wish it would so it could finally feel the love it deserves.

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#Ive got about 20 unhinged notes that i wrote mid panic attack on the train in my notes app #scared of the day somebody sees them #some of them from 2021

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i just want to trace my veins with my knife

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If I see one more cute fucking couple I will kill them and then myself!!! stop sitting across of me on the train I will end your life. I own a knife and could get acess to a gun. I am not afraid to kill myself. 

ooooh youre just jealous. 

OMG ARE YOU A FUCKING PSYCHIC HOW DID YOU KNOW? YEAH OBVIOUSLY I AM JEALOUS! WHAT ELSE DO YOU THINK I WOULD BE YOU FUCKING IDIOT

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Nobody knows the real me. Not even myself. 

#feelings #suicidal #sh #self harm #self h@te

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I WILL BE PRETTY I WILL BE PRETTY WITH SCARS ALL OVER MYSELF. I WILL BE FINALLY BEAUTIFUL IN MY DEATH. COVERED IN BLOOD.

#sh #self harm #self h@te #cuts #cutting #suicidal

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I want to cut and be pretty and bleed and take pills and vomit and burn and cry and die and just feel something

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blog

about me:

Sol

2007

Angsty teenager

just here to do some funky shit

this blog will probably contain:

poetry and my terrible writing 

whatever comes to the darkness that i call my brain

If there is something triggering i will write a TW in the tags and in the text as well

on my other blogs: 

  bloodzombie-decay.tumblr.com- photos

- movies

-music 

-fandom related/ fanfiction 

#about me #read this #before you follow