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Dear Barni

I wish I could express how I'm feeling. I wish I had the ability to do it, but I can't. I can't tell you how in love with you I am. I can't tell you how happy and special you made me feel. I can't tell you how deeply sorry I am that you got wrapped up in my shit and I couldn't tell you what was going on or who it was because I'm emotionally repressed and I didn't want to relive it anymore than I already was.

I know it doesn't mean a lot, but I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for everything. I just want you back in my life. I want to look forward to waking up and talking to you instead of falling asleep and dreaming that you're still mine.

I wish I'd told you how you made me feel, but I'm not good with words. I'm sorry I get caught up in my head and that made everything worse over Christmas. You are my forever. There's no one else out there for me. You have my heart.

You're the kindest, most caring person I have ever met. I want you back in my life so much. It hurts being away from you and I don't know how to get you back. I am still the person you called a keeper. I am still the person you wanted to take on dates. I am that person, not the crazy person that someone else made me out to be. I just don't know how to show you that. I don't know how to tell you that. I don't know anything other than I'm in love with you and I need you.

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photography is wild. in person i can't really see the difference between that dusty blue and green but it is so clear in the photo?? also i'm finally done frogging! Was actually done a couple of hours after my last update but i wanted to see how far i could get in a month. i'm almost done re-stitching all the sections i had to frog, but i'm most excited to be almost half way done.

pattern by Vivsters on etsy

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I know it's selfish to say

But baby I hope you never meet anyone new

Never replace me

Never forget me

Cause I'll always be yours

Even if you'll never be mine

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the DETAILS!!!!

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The Unicorn's Garden, my cross stitch take on the medieval tapestry "The Unicorn Rests in a Garden"

The Unicorn's Garden Cross Stitch Pattern | Sprouting Lupine Shop

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I feel like no one understands. I miss him. I miss him so much. He's constantly in my life cause I remember him. I remember the way I felt every time he messaged me. How I felt so warm when he said the cutest things in the world to me. How special he made me feel. And then it got ripped away from. And he's gone. He's still around. All around me. Every waking thought. Every dream. I want to hold him and tell him how sorry I am that he got wrapped up in my shit. That he had to deal with me. My separation anxiety. My abandonment issues. My trust issues. Instead of just being able to communicate like a normal person, I went into fight mode. I ruined the only thing that could make me happy. The only person I wanted. I miss him. I want him back. I need him back.

#lonelly #love #i miss you #i miss him

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Watching The Holiday and releasing all you want is two beautiful children like Jude Law has and releasing you may never get that because you have to find someone who will love you and you have PCOS which may result in your ovaries being removed if you ever stay off the pill long enough to try and not have to deal with enormous amounts of pain and sickness in the meantime

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The holidays always brings out the crafter in me. I love Halloween and wanted to make a tissue box cover to use in my office for the odd sized boxes my work orders. Since it's an odd size I had to make up my own pattern and I'm pretty thrilled with how it turned out. Can't wait to add it to my office decor on Monday 🎃🦇

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Okay, Pinterest. You win. These candles are freaking adorable and I regret nothing.

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I looove stitching primitives, and this sampler was so fun!

Thinking of stitching some of the panels again as separate little projects because why not 😏

P.S.: I got the medal when I competed as an olympic weightlifter one time in my city 🤣 that was less fun than stitching the sampler.

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The irony if getting caused of stalking someone online while stalking them online

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Giant Crochet Snails // Rock Maker Stitches

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