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So I know it's been a while...

But I gotta get on it again. 

The rest of my life is rapidly going down the drain at the moment, I think my weight/health/diet is probably the only thing I have any change of getting control over.

I feel like a major depression is coming on.  Depression has always come in cycles with me and I was riding a happy wave throughout the beginning of the year, that wave is going to crash...

Must.keep.control.

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I'm Back.

I'm sorry I left.

I weigh about the same.

I'm feeling pretty low.

My personal trainer is making me feel a lot of shame right now and I don't appreciate it. That's not what i came here for.  

I did measurements with her in december, then again in january.  Between these measurements I gained 2kg. I also had Christmas, New Years, my Birthday and a 2 week holiday in Japan, all of which was pretty awesome, I do not regret a single lb of those 2kg and I was totally ready to get back to the gym and hit it, yet she gave me so much shade when I got back.

I know I'm trying to loose weight and get healthy but I anticipate these situations where I gain weight and I know i gained 2kg but i was actually mentally the strongest and happiest I have been in ages over the last 2 months and now I feel shit because she made me feel like I'm failing.

EUGHGUHGHG.

She also is like how many times have you been to the gym last week? Me: Twice, I also went swimming twice and went for a run. Her: Yes but it's about consistency and keeping up with your program.

I don't disagree but what I made clear when I signed up with her that my aim is to incorporate physical activity in to my life as much as possible, whether it is gym/swim/cycle/weights whatever, I do not enjoy the gym enough to go there 5 times a week. I love cycling, I love swimming yet she always makes out it's inferior.

My fucking sweat glands tell me that its not.

Rant over.

Help?

#fitblr #motivation

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