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Time 7:30 PM

Friday

4th december 2020

MBH HALL, Lucknow

AND THE CONFLICTS , REJECTION, NEW ERA OF FAILURE IS GOING TO START.

wish you Luck yatharth.

I am going to lose many characters of my surrounding's.

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The Inspiring U.S.M.

D-30 7/10/2020

Universal Solidarity Movement (USM) Father Varghese Alengaden is the Founder of the Universal Solidarity Movement of Value Education for Peace (USM).The Universal Solidarity Movement is an NGO centered on developing enlightened leadership, responsible citizenship, and promoting harmony among religions and ethnic groups. Alengaden was the Youth Director of Madhya Pradesh Regional  Bishops’ Conference. It was his work with youth that led him to build the USM and promote a culture of interreligious harmony and cooperation in India and abroad.

My assosiction with USM is about to complete 6 years and they continue to inspire me.  irony is whenever I try to explain my feelings towards this organization I am out of words. But today i will try to gather words to share my experiences and emotions. 

Dear USM, after joinning you I felt special, recognized and enlightened , I was so mesmerized by your act of supporting the Usm members that I started to recognize my ownself. I started to accept and understand my flaws which I have been neglecting for a long time. Or I can say that I didn't even realize that i had some of those flaws.I became true to myself and understood myself better. Respected Father Varghese is one of my idols.Though he inspired me a lot, I was more  inspired by the members of this organization.

USM claims that it will provide you value in education to get peace in your life.Well it's damn true that the usm teachings will not only provide you with a value system but it will also instill in you a sense of pride, happiness,positive energy,a hope and sense of worthiness.

I never attended the training session due to time,distance or financial constraints but I wish to attend it altleast once. But when I attended the Knit India Programme, I heard many people telling their transformation stories and hearing those people made me  realise that “ small incidents or  minor actions  can bring about a positive change and can give us a better perspective of life.”

I realised that i can also be wothy of something. In a nutshell I can say that even small things can bring a great impact on life. After my association with USM, I started analyising my self , discoverd a lot within me and I started feeling thankfull even for the smallest of things which I didn't appreciate eralier , and that changed my thought process and my way of looking at others.

1.I lost my sense of ugliness

2.I lost that feeling of extreme anger.

3.I learned the importance of food 

4.I was spiritually motivated towards god and meditation helped me a lot.

Finally  I feel happy and there is a sense of pride within me and i can think much more clearly. But I will surely say this, all this didn't happen to me in a day or month , It took me years to figure out and get into action but the seed was sowed only by U.S.M. 

I can say USM is my turning point of my life.

sometimes I still wish if i could share this feeling of change that day, on stage of my school campus when I was asked to share my learnings after attending KNIT INDIA 2014, but I was blank just because I was short of words to explain the emotions i felt that day after listening to that session.

USM you are the base of maturity in my life. You came to my life like an angel in disguise to share with me the true meaning of life.

I thank you with all my heart.

Yatharth Gupta

#thank you

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D-29

25 June 2020 , Thursday

Ef. Happy birthday Rituparna Samaddar.💛 ,may Lord Shiva 💙 bless you with all kindness, peace, and happiness in your life. And May your smile never fades aways, ever. 🤗😚

Remember, the promises I made will always be valid with same efficiency whenever you needed , I will be there to help you besides any situation. Btw I still badly miss the english teacher.

No doubt I still care for you with same compassion as earlier, I don’t know how u were been in this long journey of 1 year . But I know one thing you are much more capable, stronger, than you think. You are independent , carefree, fearless. And that's what makes you unique. And i still hope

No doubt, I am not bechara person , but I have my priorities, and you were one of fav priority. Yess I always miss you but I still don't know how to express my thoughts with the same feelings and I still don't know how to convince. But it's true u were a best part of my life . And after you I didn't able to make any frnd even close as you. Becz I didn't felt that feeling again for anyone. Anymore.

Btw I still miss that lot falling down near to your ears which I use to set back again and you found that act so cute. I miss your smile, hair, that pink hankey, your yeeeee recation, your Stories, the coffee , nukkad cafe , our conversations and the street almost everything.

But the inner me, a voice always pulls me down to not to forget something , which holds me back not to gain once gain this friendship.

Yatharth Gupta

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D-28

8/9 June 2020           Monday / Tuesday          12:12 PM

Happy Bestfriend Day. Shobhit , Shantanu, Rituparna, Aakriti, Sonali, Amandeep, Saurabh,Midahat, Anuja, Muskaan Sahni, Shraddha, Neha, Aditya, Rohit, Sakshi, Prashansa,Swati verma, Tarun, Metali and my hostel mates.

(Muskan(sister))

Its true, any person who made you smile on any occasion of your life, its never a badchoice.

Dear best friends,

I am so lucky to have you in my life, which makes my goodbyes very difficult. you were my amazing gifts which i admire whole heartedly.

I dont know who are going to be connected for whole life or no one, but I know you are very special for me, you are a part of my happiness.you all have seen me even on my worse but holded me and you believed in me and maintained our bond and stood for and against in even and odd situtaions.

I had made lots of mistakes in my life, you all corrected me whenever I was worng.you scolded me with full authority, seriously i am blessed.

one thing I want to say to you all, I just love you whole heartedly and i will be there when you need me in any situtaion, you are facing in your life. if i could i will surely be there for you at least emmotional support atleast. Thank you for trusting me and keeping faith in me. Thank you so much.

Yatharth Gupta

#bestfriend

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D-27

Saturday/Sunday

6/7 June 2020.

1:55 AM

06/06/2020 Happy birthday Akash Saini 🎂 ...with lots of love and appreciation, blessing from the divine.

वो कागज़ की कश्ती वो बारिश का पानी से सफर शुरू हुआ वो बड़ा ही साफ़ सुथरा बेहिजक बेपरवाह बेखयाली के मस्ती भरे दिन थे, ना खाने की चिंता ना कोई शौख ना सपने लड़कपन के, न बेनाम सी ख्वाहिशे , ना प्यार और ना ही नफरत का किस्सा। बहुत खूबसूरत होता है ये बचपन।

जब मैं पहली बार किसी नए शहर गया वह मुझसे किसी ने कहा मुझसे एक वाक्य कहा था। मुझे कहीं पे कुछ भी दिखा दो नयी जगह है सब अछा ही लगेगा।

ये बात मेरे दिलो दिमाग में उतर गयी, अजीब था, उस वक़्त तो बात जम गयी लेकिन कहीं न कहीं मेरे दिमाग में जम्म गयी थी। फिर याद आया ऐसा तो मुझे पहले भी लगा है सब कुछ नया सा और वो था मेरा बचपन जब मैं पहली बार पैदा हुआ था।

बिलकुल नए सहर की तरह सब कुछ नया सा था , सब कुछ चौक देने वाला,

ये कहा आ गए हम यूही साथ साथ चलते मईया की गोंद में तो कभी पापा के तो कभी किसी रिस्तेदार के वो अजीबो गरीब चेहरे बनाते हुए मुझे हँसाने का प्रयास करते हुए।

दिन बीते ,महिने बीते और बीते सालों साल, सब कुछ बीता सब कुछ बदला लेकिन न बदला माँ का प्यार।

I was just wondering about my life starting point and the thought of a boy in a new city will likely to see wonders in Everything..

Ohh..I just dreaming of the most beautiful picture of my life... Thats amazing with 10 out of 10 stars. Ahhaa.. that's great!!!! Now a days 10/10 is hard to get .. don't be jealous I got this😂😂

Now, we are in the race to get a new life , obviously we have to for survival and for quality of life.. but in this race something we are missing day by day that is the child in you, that energy , that curiosity , that smile and that cry out loud ,

I know now we are a part of society but irony is we cannot cry,laugh in the public we find a proper place for everything , (हसना है तो स्टैंड अप्प कॉमेडी देखो, रोना है तो मूवी देखो, नाचना है तो पार्टी क्लब में जाओ) why we can't do in your home with full of emotion..

If you can't express fully, how can you live your life as fullest????

Damm yaar..... Just do it !!

Don't hesitate just try do itt.........

Yatharth Gupta

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D-26

Thursday, 4 June 2020

11:50 PM

Ahhhhh... Last some days I had lots of stores to write down but I was confused ere to start, but at the end I felt, it's not right to avoid this for such a bad excuse.. actually I was just lazy.

So finally after all mess I am here once again to share something from last 7 days thoughts...

I would probably say my thoughts, it just because no second person is hitting my thoughts to anywhere kya just my intellectual mind who question to myself all.alone and try to make me find the answers , so I use to say my thoughts.....

Recently, luckily I just pause to a channel were I saw a King is begging in front of one poor people who is a daily wage worker , King was asking about the secret of happiness, and after many failed attempts at the end when king came like a thirsty of gaining knowledge by leaving all Kings stuffs , poor guy agreed to answer about the secret of happiness..

He told the King... Happiness is a journey not a destination, you have to find the happiness not in others it's just inside you.. definitely their are lots of questions raised by the King and he answered them all but the core answer was happiness cannot be guaranteed from external sources , it's always inside us..

Secondly, I was think about sex education in India , what is right answer to the awkward questions, why is it necessary, what will be syllabus since in India only .23% of the total population know about the true knowledge and efficiency of sex education rest all population is in vain...

Sex education is very necessary with proper guidance and carefully selection of words.

I just learned something about this.. at what age , parents should start talking about the sex education with their children .

In india an company called Untabboo run by Anju kish ma'am..who had taken the initiative to spread the awareness related to sex education .

Actually sex education teaches you about respecting your body, and the body of others too..

the changes in the body after a age.. which is normal, everyone faces but we hesitate to talk about.

And that is the another serious stuff to think very carefully.

I will be reading more articles in coming days.....

Yatharth Gupta

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D-25

Saturday, 30 May 2020

My heart just felt worthy to share my feelings towards the character of the film called Winnie the Pooh..

That's all what I want to say ....

Thank you..

Yatharth Gupta

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D-24

Tuesday, 26th May 2020

11:30 PM

Today, I came across many unexpected thoughts about the time, desires, purpose, quarantine, and the life's struggle for migrant workers and the Corona warriors.

I am kinda very emotional but intellectual person , bt the time when I see people sufferings my eyes shows up with tears and heart beat are at high pace, mind is full of desire to help the migrant workers but felt helpless that I can't do much which will help them to reach their home, but I can pray for them.

I heard many of the volunteers coming up who are capable to provide help like a warriors says corona warriors.. I big salute to those who had taken the initiative..

One thing I thought about one who can't do anything to help them , they can actually make a big difference by doing nothing,

Means by not judging other community groups , LGBT , caste, creed etc, they are also a living beings and they have a stomach which urges for food and shelter , be kind to them will not cost you anything.

Kind words do not cost anything to you not a single penny ,but it will benefits you indirectly...

At least we all can do this, can we????

Other thing I thought about my retention in the home, starting days, and during the lockdown , on starting days after a long period of time I was about to stay for a long period of time and I was just feeling uncomfortable and frustrated or depressed (may be) as the time passes I moved on with this feeling and I started realising about myself , I experienced the feeling of sensitive and sense.. I started working on myself and my past left out desires which I was not able to complete due to lack of time or priority issues..

I feel everything has two sides , this lockdown has also a two sides, we have to make a choice wisely were you what to go.....

Thank you..

Yatharth Gupta

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D-23

Sunday /monday

11.30 PM , 25 May 2020

Happy birthday prashansha Singh Rajpoot, blessings and peace , I pray for.

Sometimes , I want to write about many things , many topics.. continuously striking on my monkey mind, sometimes I thank my monkey behavior of my mind and sometimes when I mess up I just screw up my mind.

Well it happens , it's normal I just accept it because it me who are responsible for all this mess ups. It me who at last going to control all do the right things according to the best priority hierarchy. And I am sure I will ....

But apart from my monkey mind , I also started believing my vibes , my gut feelings are seems to be strong these days, I actually don't know but the happening or the incidents make me feel that way, now a days I feel like more intellectual person with my own self.

Earlier I didn't use to have faith in God , but eventually after some time I was just attracted towards God, spirituality, yoga ,the vibes , the mantras , shlokas and the deep conversations of experts and experienced ones.

Eventually, somewere I seems to know about this feelings but I was so busy in some other societal stuffs that k don't had time to thing or to reflect about this feelings..

But during this lockdown , were everyone is in danger , struggling for life , doctors and police are working as warriors parallely I feel for them , as God blessings and I pray for them.

But this free time which I have got , I think it's was just a part of plan made by the universe vibes. I started reading many things , from mental level , spiritual level, physical and intellectual level. These all four I started growing with these.

I don't what is good or bad I only know I have to work hard enough to complete those things which I desire for. I know I can vibe , I can feel many things , yet I was just feeling it's time to work on that . I just wanna do it. And I just pray to almighty just just provide me much inertia to achieve....

Yatharth Gupta

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D-22

Saturday, 23 may 2020

Baat sirf itni si hai ki life and death to ek dum sacchai hai iss duniya ki in any neglect it, aur rahi baat purpose (उद्देश्य) ki to imagine karo aapko koi ek purpose mill gaya, wo fulfill ho gaya uske baad kya , ab kya karoge, your life will be bored, agar kum shabdo me kahun to ye bewkoofi ya paagalpan hoga ki aap ek purpose khojo aur uspe hi kaam karo and death aur ye ho bhi nahi sakta , situation humesha badlti rehti hai. Infact hum abhi jo jee rahe hain wo bhi ek life hai lekin hume aisa lagta hai ki agar hum dharti pe aaye hain to bhagwaan ne hume kuch special banaya hoga kisi khaas wajh se aaye hain hum , maje ki baat ye hai jinko aisa lagta hai ,that person is doing worst things on this planet,

Agar aap chahte ho ki aapko aapke.life ka purpose mill jaye to ye bhi ek sach hai ki aap limited ho jaoge sirf usi purpose ke liye..

You won't able to.explore different areas , which you can explore if you don't focus on that one particular purpose.....

Just it will create a psychological limited data on which you will revolve.

So it's better don't have a purpose, and explore new things amazing you will never feel bored in your entire life agar tumhari life 10000 years tak hi kyu naa ho.u will never be bored and the end of life's day u will find yourself complete atleast what u explored.. .. only mad people trying to find the purpose ,

Life mili hai mast jiyo har cheej explore karo maje karo seekho , rishte nibhao kabhi koi kami nahi hogi. And u will never feel regret.

Yatharth Gupta

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D-21

Thursday/Friday

22/May/2020

Strange but commendable and mesmerizing the beauty of the nature is, I just can't imagine the calmness and how peacefull the elements of the nature can be. They seems very perfect and well balanced according to the needs of human body they act and reveal themselves in front of us.

They know what you want and they become they present you as you feel like. Nor too much or much less they are perfectly fine.

I think nature had also a sense , feelings and the emotional sides (angry and happy?) May be but sometime I feel they too have feelings as humans , but they know how to use it at what proportion..

Someone told me god never created any thing waste.

And I think that's perfectly true, we humans create and discover many things , we try to make new layouts but if they produce one thing parallely they create some waste which can't be off any use totally waste. But not in the case of nature's resources. Everything's is under control and nothing goes waste even the shit has some value and the uses in the life cycle which exists under this planet.

I am just thankfully to the god for this precious gift. And making me a part of this. I have a quality to prevent and keep safely my gifts since the nature is a gift for me I will try to save this.

Yatharth Gupta

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D-20

Wednesday, 20 May 2020

I was just thinking about, when sun rises it really gives you a new way of energy to start your day with new energy and enlightenment.

Hardly any person exists one who don't love the nature's welcome by a sweat light on your face , birds singing to your years, fresh cold air touching your body felt like healing all your problems and give you a simple cosy smile on your face. And thats called perfect morning.. wake up with smile on your face with a feeling of gratitude.

I also got to know about one thing,

Dog's are great animal, one who love dog, he is a good man, and when dog loves a man, means a man is a good man. Just simply means a man has nature of humanity. They are trustable and there history is a proof from a period of dwaparyug. While walking to the heaven all died (pandav's) except yudhishthir and the dog who followed him till the door of the heaven. But indra stopped him not to enter in heaven with this dog and yudhishthir deny himself not to enter if he dont allow this dog with him and Indra replied you passed this exam yudhishthir , this dog is just not a dog but he is lord dharma.

I must say love dogs and respect every animals , humans may hurt you emotionally but animals never. They are highly trusted.

Yatharth Gupta

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D-19

Tuesday, 19 May 2020

Constipation can make your day very miserable .... with a feeling of yuck in everything which comes under your daily routine. Your mind and body will not be available for work. Kinda upset and frustrated day will be you can't imagine of.

Today I didn't able to complete my to do list because I don't feel to complete , I fasted whole day because u don't want to eat, I feel like vomiting, headache , cervical pain, eyes are burning and addition to that their was no electricity in the evening when sun is at peak on this hot summer. I was sweating like hell . I wanted to sleep but I can't .

Huhh!!!! Such a mess and miserable day it was 😓😓

Yatharth Gupta

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D-18

Monday, 18 May 2020

Sometimes, after a miserable day I come to my bed to write this journal just before take off towards my dream , sometimes I feel very blank and right now exactly I am feeling the same thinking what to right today.

But after writing some of the gibberish lines, thoughts started to come but not all the time , it's just because many time I feel relaxed while.writing and sometime I feel tired to write, I feel like my brain is just stopped thinking , finding hard to do something a bit.

Struggling and messing up the thoughts into one another.

But the breathing is the ultimate solution. They clear your head and your mess. They are your best friend. They will always with you. If they will not , you have no existence😂😂 just kidding. But it's truth (sometime I write rubbish)

But really today my day was blank just a daily routine nothing I learned except planning my working life.

Yatharth Gupta

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D-17

Sunday, 17, may,2020

Today, I was thinking about the migrants workers who are struggling and risking their life to come bach to theri home safely and to get atleast for their survival, these migrant workers go to other developed cities to find their work in a mass just because they don't have enough land and income for their survival and education for their children.

They are shifting towards cities, and creating a imbalance and crowd in the cities. Chawl of Mumbai is an example for that. (Asia's biggest and widest chawl) just to earn and live their livelihood. 9/5 rooms were they use to live with their family.

Coming years their will be 200 millions unplanned migrant workers will be shifted in most of the cities .

Once they are shifted and collected ,We can't get him away by the way of forces, it will be inhumanity behavior.

According to the analysis if the situation of pandemic like this will be present the more danger is there.

What is the solution??

Atleast 30% diet of humans come from trees,on an average 2 acres land is available for on family in the world. If we plant more trees and long term crops we can reduce the heat from the environment, agile, health issues will improve , less use of pharmaceutical industry, prevent migration too.

What about planting trillion trees ??

1 trillion trees at the age 15 , 50 years of pollution can be healed with out any cost.

Called ecological reconstruction

It's the calculation of scientist.

What about the availability of land to plant the trillion trees??

51 million sq2 of land which is used for agriculture in this world and 40 million sq2 are used for raising animals collectively 77% of agriculture land is used for raising animals,

If you give up 50% consumption of meal collectively by whole world. The 20 million sq2 land will be free and this much land is enough for plantation of 1 trillion trees.

It is possible for sure thing, if there is a policy to do this, it's not so difficult to do..

Fun fact. Many people are and will unemployed during/after this lockdown atleast they are free and can plant a tree. Even I am unemployed😂

We have to work on our ecological reconstruction atleast .

Soil under shed of tree is more important

Preserve biodiversity of soil

Once india is the richest in soil called gold mine here, 39 feet is the top layer of soil is wet and rich in minerals.

On the other hand, 6 inches are only top soil, somewhere 20 feet top soil., Put enough organic / green for the soil.

Animals are important.

Long period crops are important

Health is important

Inclusion of fruit intake is important.

And luckily India has got 100 of fruit varieties some are lost we have to found that and in India only there is quality of fruits rich in there vitamins and minerals.

Other countries don't have such quality it's better not to take that fruit.

We are rich , we can still be successful

We have to take a step forward and think about it.

Yatharth Gupta

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D-15

16 May 2020 saturday

Happy birthday Gorakh madheshiya. You are one of my best memorial part of my hostel life. Be successful in your life dear friend.

Yesterday I was talking to my sister , we talked about many things but suddenly she asked me some guidance about meditation.

My sister is my motivation in many aspects , she is more talented than me, she is a good listener, a better yoga practitioner and very cheerful person. But still she asked me a guidance just because I practice meditation since long time for now,

I try to get more knowledge to do the meditation for a longer period of time with same coordination and same state of mind.

After my suggestion to her , I always try to analyse my suggestion, is that true or worth mentioning that. Because in the flow people always says many things and so I.

And yes of course I said it right but their is something missing, and then I thought for a long about the missing thing which was disturbing me. I started questioning myself and then I got one disturbed question I.e. angry, frustration, irritation , headache , during and after the process of meditation.

actually,

I started practicing yoga and meditation.

After lot of practice of meditation , I am able to meditate at least 45 mins for now.. BUT during the process of meditation and after meditation I don't find peace and calmness.

I feel very angry, frustrated, irritated, headache.

How to over come?

Is it normal?

Why it happen to me?

People do it for calmness but I don't achieve that.?

Am I doing it wrong way?

A lot of question is coming to my mind......

I am Sure I will find the answer...

Yatharth Gupta

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Something what I felt yesterday , but no words to write , Sir you gave me the inspiration if you don't have to write anything in your mind, then write about your no writing.

Thank you.

Yatharth Gupta

DAY 4552

Jalsa, Mumbai                        May 15,  2020                  Fri 11:31 PM      

There is nothing to write .. so it is imperative to write that there is nothing to write .. for a write involves writing a write that writes a writing written in readable write .. hence there is no write ..

Amitabh Bachchan