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and the thing is im still here. not like i used to be. not like when twenty five hours of my brain were filled with destiel and every morning something even less plausible was unfolding right before my eyes but had you asked me any time over the last three and a half years am i over destiel? the answers is no. i'm not. i still come back here every morning hoping for something new to go down. i look at castiel's face every day on my home screen when i turn on my phone. there can be no closure when everything that has been said was retracted and everything that hasn't been said is still just as loud.

trying to explain the thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's house post to a friend and i mean its not really working because theres too much required reading but instead i just went on a supernatural tangent and isn't it so crazy that ships are either canon or they aren't or they're destiel. how did they make that angel gay in the least ambiguous most hotly contested "i love you" ever known to man. why do wars get fought over if castiel's homesexual declaration of love is enough to consider him a queer character when almost everyone else gets credited a lot more for a lot less. how did the cw manage to fumble everything imaginable about this show other than the decade long psyop to convince the masses that we are insane.

#supernatural #destiel

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trying to explain the thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's house post to a friend and i mean its not really working because theres too much required reading but instead i just went on a supernatural tangent and isn't it so crazy that ships are either canon or they aren't or they're destiel. how did they make that angel gay in the least ambiguous most hotly contested "i love you" ever known to man. why do wars get fought over if castiel's homesexual declaration of love is enough to consider him a queer character when almost everyone else gets credited a lot more for a lot less. how did the cw manage to fumble everything imaginable about this show other than the decade long psyop to convince the masses that we are insane.

#supernatural #destiel

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oh my god guys do you ever think of the fucking implications. that destiel michael's vessel post makes me feel absolutely insane 🙃

#supernatural #destiel #i might have regressed back into my not interacting very much ways but do not think for one second i am over destiel lol

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when a claim is laid on a living soul, it leaves a mark, a brand.

#this post left such an impact on my psyche #one million notes. to me

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The fact that it’s canon that Dean loved Cas in his cowboy getup so much he took and printed at least one picture 🙃

#literally so true past me

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One of the petty things I am prone to doing is starting customer support chats on websites which I believe have completely nonsensical behaviour and asking a bunch of innocuous normal person questions that force the customer support person to explain to me that what I want is impossible. Now I do this nicely obviously. The point is not to make them suffer for my bad day it's that I imagine I'm contributing to some large aggregation of data points that eventually result in someone higher up going hm it does seem strange and unintuitive that on our real estate website which lists bedrooms and bathrooms and allows you to select a minimum and maximum number of bedrooms for a query you cannot do the same for bathrooms and are instead forced to only set a minimum and skip over hundreds of results you aren't interested in. That doesn't make any sense! And the thought of that person, even though they may not even exist or care, nonetheless calms me down enough to continue on with my life

#brain.txt #do not. get me started. on the fucking 2bed2bath plague #i realise this is coming from a place of extreme privilege but i am looking to buy a place for just me and 2bed2bath is just such a waste #of space #i find it mind boggling that everyone else seems to just thing more bathroom=better why would you ever want leas bathroom??? #maybe if i had any realistic hope of ending up in a relationship i would be more into two bathrooms but. again. this is the financial #security talking. but for two people id prefer 3bed #2bed2bath just seems extremely sharehouse #which is fine!! i get why they exist! what i dont get is why theres no option for people who clearly have a completely different use case to #filter to the configuration they want #people looking to share 2bed2bath can filter bathrooms to 2+ #people looking to buy as a single are just shit outta luck 👍

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WHAT FUCKING IDIOT AGREED TO ROLLING OUT THE MAJOR SOFTWARE RELEASE WE HAVE BEEN PREPARING FOR FOR HALF A YEAR ON MY BIRTHDAY

#brain.txt #this idiot #i had such an afternoon #good lord

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i cannot believe there isn't a vibrant fanfiction community for long dead MMO TERA online. must i do everything myself

#brain.txt #i dont even have any ideas ive just been reading the story quests and it Would be funny if i started writing tera fanfiction #as one of the only people who has ever read any of this lmao #i love the genre “MMO lore the majority of players will never see” its always kinda crazy and fun you can literally say anything you like

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Wait the firefighters are gay for real? Bisexuals stay winning!!

#brain.txt #i find it hard to get into shows that arent some kind of fantasy so i never watched it but genuinely good for you guys

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They literally always pick the most insane quotes for these

#supernatural

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#logging into tumblr today

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Booping is a delight. Boop Boop!!!

#brain.txt

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LOVE IS THE WHOLE POINT. OF IT ALL

#OBLIGATED TO REBLOG EVERY TIME I SEE IT #it is literally the whole point

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I asked my coworkers the walrus/fairy question and first of all they, being engineers, all immediately insisted fairies aren't real and therefore a fairy would be more surprising, but also this has become an ongoing debate where in the middle of a seemingly unrelated conversation someone just shouts “oh but a walrus would make sense?”.

#brain.txt #im fighting for my life to justify walrus and have had so many #“your brain works in such interesting ways i could never understand it” #which to be clear is not news to my coworkers #but it does keep happening

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a topic I have infinite interest in is game systems that have unintended complexities as a result of player interaction. I could read a billion articles about video games that fuck up their fictional economies so bad they completely devalue their own currency. this one guy on YouTube made a five hour video about how the EVE online devs basically had to invent a system of law in the game to deal with players exploiting various in-game systems. like they had to invent land tax regulations in a video game. and I have no interest in playing fighting games but the insanely complicated meta of each fighting game makes me want to be a video games anthropologist

#me when i explain spirit shards in Runescape to my coworkers #you see the players invented a second currency to get around the limitations of the actual currency!! #they took a commonly accessible item and turned it into something which can be exchanged for goods and services #literally just what humans did so long ago #and they did it again #because thats what people do

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accidentally showed an interest in something that i forgot straight men might perceive as """sexy""" and now im really upset and angry for no reason because I hate people thinking I am attracted to women sexually but refuse to have an adult conversation with my friends about the topic because im completely and utterly convinced everyone would just say im making shit up. average day

#brain.txt #thank you high school for instilling in me that no one will ever take you seriously if you say you dont like that girl #and also internet ace discourse that has ingrained in me that im not actually feeling this way that its all a cover up for deep sex issues #which i will clearly go to therapy one day and fix and take part in the good and pure act of gay sex that everyone wants and needs :|

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It's intern presentation season again and I just had to sit though one of them accidentally saying "non binary" instead of "negative binomial"

#brain.txt