17ashlynn

[17ashlynn]

HELP! So I caught some ants outside for my ant farm. I do this every year, but this year they all gathered in groups and are not making tunnels. Does anyone know why they are doing this??

[17ashlynn]

Please read to the end and tell me if you can relate.

My parents gave me some money to spend on amazon. I asked if I could save the money. They said no because the money was given to us to stimulate the economy or whatever. I told them I didn’t want anything. They didn’t really understand when I said I didn’t want anything and made me pick something out. I ended up getting some posters for my room. The point of this is that for the first time I realized that want I wanted I couldn’t buy with money. This makes me sad because it made me realize that when given the opportunity to do something for my self I won’t take it. I feel bad for my self. Also to get the things I truly want is going to take patients and I’ve been waiting for about 2 years. These thoughts are too depressing.

[17ashlynn]

Here’s a quote from my mom:

“Sometimes people need to calm down and eat some shredded wheat”

We were talking about the kinds of people that go on the internet to comment their view on political matters. We agree that people have the right to voice their opinion but do you have to get so worked up about it. Just chill and work this out calmly. Is it really that hard?

[17ashlynn]

Let me paint a picture of what happened last night in my house:

Every year my parents get my brother and I a chocolate bunny each. My brother stole some of my dads chocolate so my mom took some of my brothers chocolate to compensate. She takes the chocolate bunny into the kitchen and she take a knife and begins to saw its head off. Then my brother takes the rest of the bunny and smashes it with a hammer so he can eat the rest in tiny pieces. And to top it off wile this was happening I (16) was watching Tinker Bell in the living room.

I... ya.. don’t come to my house during quarantine

#bunny #chocolate #tinkerbell #disney #wildnight

[17ashlynn]

Today was weird. First off this online school thing sucks and is driving my anxiety up a fuckin wall. Second off these last few hours were the weirdest. I did five pages of math homework. Went outside in the rain and did cartwheels in the dark in the middle of the street. I all most stepped on a worm. Came back inside to see that everyone was in their own room doing their own thing (nothing new, I’m always alone in a house of four) No one wanted to hang out with me so I layed on the floor in my room and cried. I realized that I didn’t eat much and I needed a shower. Got up to get clothes to take a shower but guess what!?!? I was in that one MOOD where I hate all the cloths I own because they are feminine and I’m NOT in the mood for that. Like why can’t I shop in the “boys” section sometimes. Ugh I’m DONE social norms!

Thank you for reading my daily vent ❤️

[17ashlynn]

Apocalyptic love

I actually had a good day! Only two meals though. Working on three. My brain know what needs to happen I’m just trying to get my body to listen. Lol any way here is a short story:

I fell in love once and only once, then the world as you know it ended. Hi, my name is Haden and I live in post apocalyptic USA! Wow that sounds way better then it actually is. If the world was still running I would be a junior in high school and sitting in math class staring and Kyle’s back for two reasons. One he sits in front of me. Two he is oh so cute. Now for the sad part, my family is now dead. I spend my days scavenging for food. I live with this girl named Pilla (that’s not too bad) and I haven’t seen Kyle since the world ended about a year ago. Pilla knows about Kyle because we are the only people we can talk to and we share everything. She is like my sister. Sure there are other people in other tribes but everyone is competitive for resources and not very nice. Some tribes make alliances with others but it’s rare.

Recently Pilla has been acting strange. She gets all jumpy when I’m around, and leaves very early in the morning and gets home very late. I once tried to approach her about the subject but she just shrugged her shoulders and walked away. I have a suspicion that she likes me but she knows I’m gay so I don’t know how to handle this situation. Then one day she didn’t come home, I waited by the opening to our home, which was made out of debris from a skyscraper. When the sun started to come up the next morning I fell asleep with my head on the door frame. And when the sun began to set I woke up. Pilla was still not home. I walked a half mile radius around our home. No sign of her any where. This is when fear began to set in because when a person goes missing in these days more then likely they aren’t coming back. I walked back to our home and laid on my pile of blankets that I guess you could call a bed and stared at the concrete roof. It was strange to think that this roof was once the floor of someone’s office. That many people walked on this floor and none of them have ever killed. Now it was strange to find someone that didn’t kill. Pilla has killed in self defense and I have only injured someone. Every one everywhere has experienced. It’s become so normal and honestly that’s scary.

It was in the dead of night when I heard footsteps. First I was relieved that Pilla was back. But as the footsteps approached I heard what was actually two people walking toward the house. I grabbed a knife and hid in the dark shadows of the two roomed house. I wished Pilla was here with me. She was more of a fighter and I was only the brains of the operation. I sat there in almost silence, my heart thumped in my chest so loudly I thought it would give away my location to the intruders. When they came through the doorway I got ready to strike when I heard a familiar voice say “Haden?

Like for a part 2 and if you have any ideas for stories I should write, TELL ME!!!!!!!

#short story #gay #apocolypse #romance #lgbtq+

[17ashlynn]

I’m making this account because I think it’ll be better then crying my self to sleep every night. So imma just vent. Today depression hit me hard. I didn’t eat much and I was supper dizzy. I brought the issue up to my mom. She told me to go eat but I wasn’t hungry. She sounded kinda annoyed with me so I left. I only ate one meal today and a snack. Im so sad today to the point I layed in the kitchen floor for two hours. No one seemed to notice. I want out but quarantine keeps me in. I miss my friends. Too nervous to get my hopes up for tomorrow though.

Not really sure what I’m going to do with this account. Maybe I’ll post some of my short stories. Until next vent, Ash~

#depression #vent #hope #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealthisreal #self love