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Using a VPN to watch the UK version of Married at First Sight. This is what technology was intended for.

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The department head emailed to let me know the position would be posted sometime next week and that she would email me again when it was actually posted and to please apply if I was interested, so I'm choosing to take that as a good sign.

#personal

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So I was writing a small paper in Microsoft Word and the program suddenly crashed (I saved a couple minutes before, thank god) and I get this message in the corner of my screen two seconds afterward

what the fuck

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queen of the world to me

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They don't deserve you anyway. Fuck them to the highest degree. Complete waste of your talent.

I should really be devoting all my time to gay porn anyway.

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Since health issues have kept me from updates, here's at least a preview of the next chapter of Book of Merthur. If you are not caught up and do not want to be spoiled, I recommend skipping this. There is a spoiler right out of the gate for something that happened in the last chapter.

It was not one of those banshee winds at least, which find every empty corner of the earth, and populate it with ghosts; but it did delay a journey already belated, so that he was too late not only to stop Gwen marrying Arthur, but to save her from having to oppose some incredibly ugly yellow hose. She was fighting alone, because January, aside from keeping Lancelot from her, had also sealed up the moat surrounding the citadel, and brought knights and citizens alike to its shores with their bone-skates. Anyone useful, anyone with bravery enough to look the hosen in the eye, and tell their lovely but misguided advocate they were unfit for him or any living human, was down on the moat, checking one another with their bodies in play, or throwing about handfuls of wet snow. She could hear Gwaine, and Percival, and Elyan’s voices amidst that joyful choir, which floated up to her through the open shutters, because Arthur felt it was too unmasculine to be one of those normal people who keep their windows barred in winter. 

“I’m just not sure it’s right for you,” Gwen said.

Arthur frowned at the hose. “Why not? The colour complements my hair.”

What it did, against his hair, was to show that broad spectrum of yellows which ranges from sunlight to horse piss. Arthur’s genetics had gifted him hair that was made of the former; and by contrast showed the hose like one of those miserable little puddles which can be found under drunk men with their vomit. Gwaine would have ended the bad taste with a single blow, by telling Arthur exactly what it looked like; but Gwen felt that most people of Arthur’s post-Merlin temperament responded slightly better to something other than, ‘What the hell is wrong with your eyes?’ It was a valid question; but that did not mean she needed to say it with anything other than her own eyes.

“Well, but you don’t really want it to be the same colour. You want something that brings out, you know, certain aspects of your colouring. Like a nice blue for your eyes.”

“But blue’s the same colour as my eyes,” Arthur argued.

Yes, Gwen said tiredly where she could be honest, but blue isn’t the colour of something you leave in your chamberpot. 

He lowered the hose, which he had been holding up in front of his face, and frowning upon, and now frowned upon her. “You think they’re hideous.” 

Women are always being accused of those hypersensitive gripings which the tired male must respond to with that flawless confluence of timing and inflection which assures her she is not, has never been, and never will look fat in anything whatsoever; but here was one of the lofty creatures doing exactly the same thing. The sordid truth is that men are never accused often enough of being overly sensitive bitches, though they are exactly, if not even moreso, as hysterical as any woman whose arse has advanced one centimetre on her seamstress. He was trying to hide it, but he was in a strop because she had not even stated, but rather merely, gently, maybe insinuated that his trousers were possibly a little grotesque. He was as offended as if he had made them, rather than simply attempted to misguidedly wear them.

#preview #fic #writing

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i really like looking at google image searches for “firemen rescuing cats” or something because you get super cute pictures like

AND THEN THERE’S THIS ONE

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making a collection

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Miss Congeniality (2000) dir. Donald Petrie

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I need to find out if a former coworker that I started with got automatically offered a position, because she's terrible and makes mistakes all the time, big and small, plus she's really slow at her job (I was literally doing double her amount of work WHILE I WAS STILL TRAINING), so if she's got a position I am going to be extra salty.

Leadership has emphasized over and over again that cuts aren't made based on job performance but...they should be?? That's fucking stupid. 'We're keeping this moron because they have a job title that fits into our structure, but Sue here who has an IQ of 160 and is the most competent person we've ever seen has got to go because her job title isn't in our business structure.'

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Woke up still pissed about job. I texted with a couple of other coworkers yesterday whose positions didn't get eliminated, and they were just moved into other roles. It seems like, from what I can tell, that if your current job title has an equivalent under their system, they just transfer you, if not, your position is eliminated and you have to apply for something totally different. It doesn't seem to be based on work performance at all, and I'm not just trying to soothe my wounded ego, I know at least one other person who has had to apply, and they're high level and brilliant at their job and very well-liked. Which, like, ok??? So, if you luck out and your current job title is equivalent to something in their system, you automatically get a job regardless of how well you've done, and if there is no equivalent job title, even if you're a high performer, you have to apply? Even if they have certain people they intend to retain and the applications process is basically just a formality, you're still risking that those people will cut their losses and apply somewhere else.

Also, we were all, our entire team, told multiple times that we would have roles under the new structure, and my manager said that was relayed directly from leadership, who knew what our titles and job duties were, and now suddenly they don't have places for some of our job titles and we'll need to apply to open positions? Cool. And while I wasn't told this in my meeting, the coworker whose position was also eliminated WAS told that if she applied for any open positions she wasn't guaranteed a spot. (I don't know if they just forgot to tell me or if they intend to hire me; I'm not going to read into that. Regardless, she was told for months she'd have a job and now she's being told she's not guaranteed one. She at least is a month away from being able to collect Social Security, so she's seriously considering just taking severance if it's an option and cutting her losses.)

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Well, I feel a little better about my job prospects. I was texting a little with my former boss (current head of our revenue department, but that job title doesn't exist under the new company either so she is also applying for other roles within the company) asking her a couple of questions about the job and for information on severance in case I don't get offered anything, and she said she would get me all that info so I was aware of all my options, but also said she felt I was an excellent candidate for the role and the hiring manager was under Jane (not her real name; she is the president of the department). Jane was on the call and was the one to tell me about my position being eliminated and also brought up this other job and emphasized a couple of times to let her know when I applied if I was interested in it. My current manager also told me again via text to let her know as soon as I applied so she could tell Jane.

I know who Jane is but haven't spoken much with her directly, however my current manager is in meetings with her all the time and at my last evaluation my manager mentioned that my name had been brought up multiple times and it was known from the top down how good I am at my job, so I feel a little better knowing that the lady who is over the entire department this job is a part of has only heard really good things about me. I don't want to read too much into it, but it does feel similar to when I got my current role and the interview was basically a formality. And while I was texting with my manager she said she would let me know as soon as the job posted and added, 'You will do well in this role', but I don't know if that was an autocorrect slip on the tense or if it was an 'Ooopsie I wasn't supposed to imply you're getting the job' slip.

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If it’s not a formality interview I would make sure you keep good documentation of everything they say. It sounds like a way to push you out of the role and discriminate based on disability

Yeah, I will document, but by the time my job is eliminated, my protected medical leave will be out (Washington provides 12 weeks), so legally I'm not sure there's much to be done. They have eliminated lots of positions that existed under our old structure but do not exist under the new company in order to bring us into alignment, and a coworker has the same title as me and that was also eliminated. So while it looks bad that they're eliminating the position of an employee who is a really high performer who has rarely taken sick time prior to this (so they can't point to my record and say they had lots of cause to let me go) as soon as their legally-protected medical leave is up, there's lots of precedent for them having already done it, and someone else with the same job title is in the same boat as me. I do think they would have eliminated the position even if I weren't sick and it could easily be argued by them that the whole company is being restructured and lots of positions have been eliminated because they do not exist within their company structure.

The only thing that will really tick me off if it's not a formality is that my whole team was promised over and over again through all of the restructuring that our titles and roles would change, but that we would all have jobs and roles within the company, they would just be more narrowly focused than our current titles. So adjacent, just more specialized. So if this isn't 'if you want this job it's pretty much yours' and instead 'Well sucks about your job being eliminated but we have some open positions you can apply for like everyone else' I'm going to be mad I was misled.

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Well. My boss asked me yesterday if I would be able to join a conference call with leadership because they're FINALLY telling us what they're going to do with our team (they've been restructuring after we were acquired by another company more than a year ago), so I joined the call today to be told my position is being eliminated June 1st. They have a role that's basically adjacent that they want me to apply for, so now I'm going to have to try and navigate the application and interview process while fucking bedridden. And I don't know if applying is basically a formality, but even if it is, I don't know if they'll hold it for me if I'm not back on my feet by then. So I might lose my job on top of this.

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