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dainty-and-smalll · 3 years

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Its always about him isnt it? Even when hes the one misgendering me, when im the one who cant move, when im the one sick, its always about him. Im so sick of relationships and friendships and qpp and all of it i want to live alone and be alone and just lay down and cry

#personal vent

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dainty-and-smalll · 3 years

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I made a thing, I think it looks good im sure ill get better the more I make them too

#thinspo #thinspiration #thinsparation #calorie tracker #month tracker #tw eating disorder #eating disorders #bulimia #anorexic #anorexia #not pro anything #not pro ed #pro ed #pro mia #pro ana #pro but only for me

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dainty-and-smalll · 3 years

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Okay so today I ate 560 calories and im trying to finish a 294 cal burn exercise routine rn but holy shit I forgot how much more disabled I am since my last ED relapse fuck

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dainty-and-smalll · 3 years

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I just,, need to Vent

CW for alcohol, addiction, weed, ED, SH, seziures, mania

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Im stuck. Im fucking stuck in a neverending cycle of being awful. Ive been high or drunk or b o t h at a Conant of late. Ive gained so much weight i am in so much pain. I hate myself. I wanna hurt so bad. Ive been so in and out of Mania i cant save anything my job is making me die. I have so much routine it h u r t s. I wanna fucking pack up my shit, leave, and die alone like I deserve. Im awful. I just ruin things for everyone. I have no one to vent too. Im just tirrd of being fuckinv s i c k. And now im having absence seziures! Im a mess. I dont deserve this life. I cant beleive people put up with me.

Fuck this world. Fuck my bpd. Fuck school. Fuck dating. Fuck friends. Fuck being sober. Fuck this.

#cw #cw alcohol #drugs cw #negativity cw #death cw #cw disordered eating #smoking cw #tw self destruction #tw death #tw self image #tw eating disorder #tw eating stuff #death tw #cw mental health #cw seziures

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dainty-and-smalll · 3 years

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Mmmmm new aesthetic makes brain go brrrr

Wanna be skinnie alt Enby who everyone looks at in awe

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dainty-and-smalll · 3 years

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Covid has fucked me up so badly. I thought living on my own would mean id eat less, but i guess fucking not. And the bf is starting online school soon which means I cant even do home workouts!! Imma fucking perish i hate him living here somedays i fucking stg

#i hate everything #excercise #binge eating #eating disorders #ed #anorexic #anorexia #ana #pro mia #mia #ana buddy #pro ana #male ana #eating disoder tw #tw eating disorder #tw eating stuff #eating disoder mention

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dainty-and-smalll · 3 years

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I wanna start a diet

Anyone wanna do one with me? We can add each other on insta or discord or something and do a diet together! Ive been stuck binging forever

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dainty-and-smalll · 4 years

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I really gotta stop binging. Im so tierd of this. Im probably back in the 160s. Ugh.

Imma start working out 3× a day, my boyfriends gonna ask why but imma say its cause im getting back in shape so I can join jazz again next year! Imma slowly start eating less so its not super noticeable but the exercise will help get the cals off plus imma try to convince my bf to go on a walk with me per day.

I refu s e to start my first year of uni over 130. I will be under 130 by September. Around 30lbs to lose in 6 months, that should be a piece of cake

Plus if I lose 5lbs a month it shouldnt be noticable enough for my therapist to notice anything either!

I have to do this.

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dainty-and-smalll · 4 years

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Guess who fuckin messed up again and keeps binging!

Its me!

I hate myself!

#binge eating #eating disorders #ed #anorexia #ana #collar bones #fasting #i feel like shit #tw eating stuff #tw eating disorder

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dainty-and-smalll · 4 years

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Sat, Dec 7th

Fasted all day

Worked out twice

Super hungry but am babysitting and too afraid to eat anything here

So far at a 26 hour fast (20h00)

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dainty-and-smalll · 5 years

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Fri, Dec 6th

Ive been sick since the 3rd!

Havent eaten too too much but enough im dissapointed in myself.

Im feeling better now and gonna start setting stuff up with my trainer and im also gonna start exercising at the least 2 a day.

I will be 145 by christmas. I will.

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dainty-and-smalll · 5 years

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Tue, Dec 3rd

I have worked out 3 times today and im sick anyways what I did is below:

150 jumping jacks

1 min plank ×2

50 crunches

25 sit ups

55 side leg lifts (per side)

25 leg lifts up (per side)

50 lunges

30 up downs

70 hip thrusts

20 pushups

Im exhausted time to nap

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dainty-and-smalll · 5 years

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Sun, Dec 1st

Starting off Decemeber at 159.8lbs the first time ive ever been below 160

Im absolutely ahhhh and excited about it

I am also starting ut off slightly hungover and by taking grad photos in an outfit i felt good in (Might share a pic with face covered)

But uwu yall anyways imma go work out and then sleep

#anorexia #ana #anxious #anxiety #bulimia #binge #binge eating #pro ed #pro mia #not perfect #pro ana #purging #not pro just using tags #eating disorders #ed tw #tw eating disorder #tw eating stuff #tw eating mention

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dainty-and-smalll · 5 years

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25/11/19

Was planning on fasting but i had food instead.

Ive been feeling super weak and sickly lately so I ate before opening but I will not be eating from now until Saturday at my cast party for my show festival.

Imma start planning my weeks in a journal probably. I wanna start a bullet journal for my ed of sorts. Not super fancy i suck at fancy things.

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dainty-and-smalll · 5 years

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24/11/19

Tech day is today and show week starts soon.

Im super weak and I had breakfast too. I feel super faint and kinda cold. My whole body feels tense.

In other news got my septum and my tongue pierced yesterday and thr tongue one makes it hard to eat a lot so ha yay me!

Anyways time for a 7 hour day and then mr going home and promptly passing out

#anorexia #anxious #ana #anxiety #bulimia #binge #binge eating #collar bones #eating disorders #ed #excercise #ed tw #tw eating stuff #tw eating mention #eating disoder tw

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dainty-and-smalll · 5 years

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23/11/19

(I put the date as dd/mm/yy btw)

Anyways weighed myself today! Lost 2.4lbs from last Sunday!

Im a little dehydrated rn so im gonna try to drink more water a day

Also my Boyfriend is slightly catching onto my eating habits going bad again so im pretty much whenever I do eat gonna send him pictures or skmething to make it look like im eating a lot and then trash it.

What this week looked like

M - Fasting

T - Fasting

T - Fasting, Broke fast at 13h30 because I felt like shit lmao had some lettuce and beef. Then went out for dinner and binged a little bit but wasnt over 1800 cals im assuming

F - Fasted until I got home, Hit 23 hours and 57 minutes till I had two small pieces of pizza and still ended up netting with only like just over 200 cals eaten

S (Today) - Currently at a 14 hour fast, planning on a 55 cal piece of bread with an egg white for lunch before I leave and then 23 cals worth of my home made soup for dinner

Sun - Eat 55 cal of toast with egg white for breakfast, Fast through rehursal 9h00-14h40 plus my bus ride so until around 16h30ish so a total of 9ish hours, not a lot but this is my normal eating day. Then ill eat something a bit bigger for dinner if its still in my cal amount for the ABC diet that day

Sorry for the long write out I just need to get my ideas out somewhere

Anyways have a wonderful day!

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dainty-and-smalll · 5 years

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Nov 19th, 2019

Not only am I 7 months on T today (woo go me!) I am currently attempting to last till Friday after my rehearsal so 1830 is when it ends and I wont get home till 2000 so, pretty much i wont eat till Friday, Nov 22nd at 2000 is the dream.

I hit 48 hours at 1930 and almost broke and ate food but i didnt! I thought it through and had 7 cals worth of carrot and 7 cals worth of frozen grapes (so 2 grapes)

Proud of myself and heading to bed now because it is 2200 here

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