demyrie

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before i was a faggot or a tranny or an autist i was weird and surprisingly just being weird is enough to make people treat you like all of the above

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chinese fashion by 粥米饭

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UMMMMMM THIS IS. HEART POUNDING DEVELOPMENT.

@dduane I have no idea how I came onto your radar but I'm extremely shook, I have so much respect for your work and love your blogging besides and uhhh just thank you?? I just clocked into work and I've just been walking around in circles, I literally want to be you when I grow up (and I'm not even embarrassed about the verklempt Transformers OC rant so I guess I AM growing up!) so a reboggle is utterly boggling

THANK YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY

#original work #original fiction #Midnight Tour #demyrie is freaking outtttt #Diane Duane #an angel #i always knew she was kind and a badass but like WOOF #got the senpai shakes #supernatural #urban fantasy

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Setting Moon from the Oregon Coast

by Jerad Armijo

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HEY! I know I already flailed at you about your book but I'm genuinely so excited about it and having the chance to get to know your OCs, this is gonna be so good

Hey oh man MAN thank you so Much!!! Tbh I've been spending the day pivoting between the terror of being perceived and the power of being reawakened like a narrative sleeper agent who has this whole story to tell and has for years and yeeeeeeaaaaaars.

(My partner, whose books intertwine with mine, was browsing files today and found a notes document that began in 2012. When I say years. I MEAN YEARS)

I really really hope it makes your flight bearable!!! I really hope you like ... Y'know ... Them OTL the men ... The stupid men .... I can't wait until they're Not Trying to Eat Each oTher

(If I had to offer a content warning it would be please have patience with Eli. He really believes the system works, and he's gonna for a while. Because it has to, because otherwise how is he earning his penance?)

(GOD WAIT I REALLY LIKE MY OWN STUFF THIS IS RAD 🤡 huhuhuhu)

#Midnight Tour #Eli Ledman #Tyler Kincaide #original series #urban fantasy #witches #supernatural #police procedural

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Hi demyrie. I have been reading your Bandages and Bravado series I really truly adore how you bring together and develop the relationship between Toshinori and Aizawa, they r now officially my favorite characters in the entire BNHA. Anyway years ago when I was a baby transformers fan exploring herself through the adventures and shenanigans of giant alien robots, I found a tfa prowl/lockdown fic where prowl survived Deceptions attacking Earth for the All spark by abandoning his team n joining l

[CONT]

prowl left his team on earth n ran away to be bounty hunters with lockdown and throughout all 70 chapters I was mesmerised and riveted by the development of their relationship as partners and then partners-with-benefits and then lovers and then getting domestic. And there was one of my most favorite OCS until today, a trans neutral bounty hunter named Torque. She is just… amazing?!?! Tough and kind n lonely n I loved her dif connections w prowl n LD.

[END]

Listen. Listen. My friend. You’re gonna make me fucking cry.

First of all, thank you. I’m really awash with every single feeling right now because of these wonderful people coming out of the woodwork to say they remember my transformers fics, and this is a whole new level of Blown Away.

I … because LISTEN. Her name was Torque, and just having you describe her as “tough, kind and lonely” is enough to make my hands shake. I loved her.

She was a trans, sassy, magenta, sharp-optic neutral bounty hunter who changed her model designation a bit far along in life and chummed around with Lockdown enough to know things he didn’t want his mint-condition ninjabot toy to know. She was tough, she was kind, and she was terribly lonely. She liked to gloss over some of their shared ugliness (mismatched parts, scuff-marks and oil stains) and believed that Prowl brought a new life for them both after so long surviving as space junk caught in the orbit of credits, job, deactivation, credits. 

She warmed to see Lockdown’s crusty gears slipping every so often as he found himself caring for and protecting a thing instead of stripping it raw to sell for scrap. She was my vision for living through pain and retaining kindness. She was my model for making the most of transitions and for smiling through tears.

God, I was so sensitive at that age. So sensitive that I burned up with shame when people derided her as a Mary Sue when I was already so nail-bitingly careful with balancing her screentime with the guy bots. I had ONE Torque-centric chapter and folks commented to say they weren’t going to read anymore because I was being stupid and indulgent. And, like, dunno, taking up their time when I’d already written 60+ chapters of JUST Prowl and Lockdown?

It was very clear she wasn’t allowed to have her own relationships with either of them, and the backlash threw me so much, I felt like I was being told that my relationships with these characters meant nothing.

Ahhh. The memory still stings. 

I was so ashamed, and I had no reason to be. Why do people say these things to other living, hoping, healing human beings making a story? The same thing happened when I included a chapter of her in Odd Moments, with her trying to escape a very real and familiar abusive situation – the frustration and fear of leaving a person who wouldn’t be left – and the misogynistic comments just kept coming. I deleted that chapter within a day, and can’t even remember if I deleted the Partners one.

I get that fans can be dicks sometimes, especially if what you’re doing infringes on their “all pairing all the time” show. One thing I can be so, so grateful for is how much more accepted OCs are nowadays, with people even making zines and asktumblrs and such. It’s cool. It feels like a bigger world, in a way.

All this to say, thank you, friend.

This is a super emotional day for me already, since I’ve opened pre-orders for my new original work, and you’re reminding me of how far I’ve come and how I’ve grown to love and value my own priorities in storytelling. You’re an angel, thank you. Just … thanks. It means the world to me that someone would remember her after all this time. I love my gal and I always will.

#demyrie writes #transformers: animated #tfa #transformers #tf #tf:a #partners #odd moments #odd couple #lockdownxprowl #oc talk #mythicbells-fan-3495 #trans #i know the concept is very silly with robots #but she was an old model and knew she was something more so she got the chassis to match #original work #original prose #Midnight Tour #Tyler Kincaide #Eli Ledman #i love fhem so much i cant #i havent written in so long but guess what I'm gonna do today??? #its a sign #thank you friend for prompting me!! #evening reblog

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Not people saying “Fandom has always been like this” in that vent post I made. No. It hasn’t always been like this. Fandom has NEVER been like this until recently and if you were in fandom pre-tumblr purge, pre-twitter, pre-netflix boom, pre-tiktok….then you would fucking know it was nothing like this.

We still had the drive to create. We still sold prints and charms and made zines…but it was never like this.

The introduction of streaming, binge shows that drop all at once, tiktok and vine RIP i still love u vine but you were the beginning of a particularly ugly era) creating this bite sized, quick paced ‘content’ era of creation and it bled out into fucking everything else.

Fandoms didn’t die down when the show ended or the season was over. You didn’t mass unfollow artist, writers or moots just because they changed fandoms. There wasn’t this need to please the algorithm in order for your posts to get seen by people and enjoyed.

Fandoms used to last YEARS. Star Trek is literally the oldest running fandom out there and you got people in there that could care less about the new stuff and still have been happily prancing through their fucking fifty year old fandom today. Hell, even SPN after all it’s fuckups and shitshows has a dedicated fanbase STILL creating tons of art and fic.

There is no patience anymore. No calm feeling of taking in fandom and friends at a pace that which doesn’t make you stressed and is still fun.

Do I blame fandom for this? Of course not, but people are complacent with it and start changing their vocab to accommodate and end up making the situation so deep it cant be fixed.

We call Art & Fic Content now, completely stripping the value of what it is to a level of consumerism instead of personal entertainment & community bonding.

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Great eared nightjar

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Hello from five years later???? WOW (*the sound of the author trying to be impressed instead of depressed/distressed*) (no haha I'm kidding I never underestimate how lucky I am to be alive after COVID, seriously productivity-guilt culture has no place here)

Lovely mutual reminded me that I might want to actually provide this original work and I was like, hm, sensical.

HELLO TO MY BRAINCHILD. Midnight Tour is "urban fantasy" buddy cop drama -- and neither dude is a willing participant in this team up 😂 there are 13 books in this series, swimming in my diehard love of healing, trauma, romance, queerness, and of course mistrust of the establishment lol.

It's been incredibly interesting/the most fucking radicalizing to begin dreaming up a fairly standard police procedural series (I am a child of the early Ots) back in 2010's, dutifully reading all these criminology literature research books on how to be "fair to police" in my portrayal, and then realizing no, no one needs to be Fair to Facists ❤️ especially not in this hellscape.

Strap in for monsters, mayhem, magic and stupid men! So stupid. Many feelings.

I'm gonna write today :)

Hi demyrie. I have been reading your Bandages and Bravado series I really truly adore how you bring together and develop the relationship between Toshinori and Aizawa, they r now officially my favorite characters in the entire BNHA. Anyway years ago when I was a baby transformers fan exploring herself through the adventures and shenanigans of giant alien robots, I found a tfa prowl/lockdown fic where prowl survived Deceptions attacking Earth for the All spark by abandoning his team n joining l

[CONT]

prowl left his team on earth n ran away to be bounty hunters with lockdown and throughout all 70 chapters I was mesmerised and riveted by the development of their relationship as partners and then partners-with-benefits and then lovers and then getting domestic. And there was one of my most favorite OCS until today, a trans neutral bounty hunter named Torque. She is just… amazing?!?! Tough and kind n lonely n I loved her dif connections w prowl n LD.

[END]

Listen. Listen. My friend. You’re gonna make me fucking cry.

First of all, thank you. I’m really awash with every single feeling right now because of these wonderful people coming out of the woodwork to say they remember my transformers fics, and this is a whole new level of Blown Away.

I … because LISTEN. Her name was Torque, and just having you describe her as “tough, kind and lonely” is enough to make my hands shake. I loved her.

She was a trans, sassy, magenta, sharp-optic neutral bounty hunter who changed her model designation a bit far along in life and chummed around with Lockdown enough to know things he didn’t want his mint-condition ninjabot toy to know. She was tough, she was kind, and she was terribly lonely. She liked to gloss over some of their shared ugliness (mismatched parts, scuff-marks and oil stains) and believed that Prowl brought a new life for them both after so long surviving as space junk caught in the orbit of credits, job, deactivation, credits. 

She warmed to see Lockdown’s crusty gears slipping every so often as he found himself caring for and protecting a thing instead of stripping it raw to sell for scrap. She was my vision for living through pain and retaining kindness. She was my model for making the most of transitions and for smiling through tears.

God, I was so sensitive at that age. So sensitive that I burned up with shame when people derided her as a Mary Sue when I was already so nail-bitingly careful with balancing her screentime with the guy bots. I had ONE Torque-centric chapter and folks commented to say they weren’t going to read anymore because I was being stupid and indulgent. And, like, dunno, taking up their time when I’d already written 60+ chapters of JUST Prowl and Lockdown?

It was very clear she wasn’t allowed to have her own relationships with either of them, and the backlash threw me so much, I felt like I was being told that my relationships with these characters meant nothing.

Ahhh. The memory still stings. 

I was so ashamed, and I had no reason to be. Why do people say these things to other living, hoping, healing human beings making a story? The same thing happened when I included a chapter of her in Odd Moments, with her trying to escape a very real and familiar abusive situation – the frustration and fear of leaving a person who wouldn’t be left – and the misogynistic comments just kept coming. I deleted that chapter within a day, and can’t even remember if I deleted the Partners one.

I get that fans can be dicks sometimes, especially if what you’re doing infringes on their “all pairing all the time” show. One thing I can be so, so grateful for is how much more accepted OCs are nowadays, with people even making zines and asktumblrs and such. It’s cool. It feels like a bigger world, in a way.

All this to say, thank you, friend.

This is a super emotional day for me already, since I’ve opened pre-orders for my new original work, and you’re reminding me of how far I’ve come and how I’ve grown to love and value my own priorities in storytelling. You’re an angel, thank you. Just … thanks. It means the world to me that someone would remember her after all this time. I love my gal and I always will.

#demyrie writes #transformers: animated #tfa #transformers #tf #tf:a #partners #odd moments #odd couple #lockdownxprowl #oc talk #mythicbells-fan-3495 #trans #i know the concept is very silly with robots #but she was an old model and knew she was something more so she got the chassis to match #original work #original prose #Midnight Tour #Tyler Kincaide #Eli Ledman #i love fhem so much i cant #i havent written in so long but guess what I'm gonna do today??? #its a sign #thank you friend for prompting me!!

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Hi demyrie. I have been reading your Bandages and Bravado series I really truly adore how you bring together and develop the relationship between Toshinori and Aizawa, they r now officially my favorite characters in the entire BNHA. Anyway years ago when I was a baby transformers fan exploring herself through the adventures and shenanigans of giant alien robots, I found a tfa prowl/lockdown fic where prowl survived Deceptions attacking Earth for the All spark by abandoning his team n joining l

[CONT]

prowl left his team on earth n ran away to be bounty hunters with lockdown and throughout all 70 chapters I was mesmerised and riveted by the development of their relationship as partners and then partners-with-benefits and then lovers and then getting domestic. And there was one of my most favorite OCS until today, a trans neutral bounty hunter named Torque. She is just… amazing?!?! Tough and kind n lonely n I loved her dif connections w prowl n LD.

[END]

Listen. Listen. My friend. You’re gonna make me fucking cry.

First of all, thank you. I’m really awash with every single feeling right now because of these wonderful people coming out of the woodwork to say they remember my transformers fics, and this is a whole new level of Blown Away.

I … because LISTEN. Her name was Torque, and just having you describe her as “tough, kind and lonely” is enough to make my hands shake. I loved her.

She was a trans, sassy, magenta, sharp-optic neutral bounty hunter who changed her model designation a bit far along in life and chummed around with Lockdown enough to know things he didn’t want his mint-condition ninjabot toy to know. She was tough, she was kind, and she was terribly lonely. She liked to gloss over some of their shared ugliness (mismatched parts, scuff-marks and oil stains) and believed that Prowl brought a new life for them both after so long surviving as space junk caught in the orbit of credits, job, deactivation, credits. 

She warmed to see Lockdown’s crusty gears slipping every so often as he found himself caring for and protecting a thing instead of stripping it raw to sell for scrap. She was my vision for living through pain and retaining kindness. She was my model for making the most of transitions and for smiling through tears.

God, I was so sensitive at that age. So sensitive that I burned up with shame when people derided her as a Mary Sue when I was already so nail-bitingly careful with balancing her screentime with the guy bots. I had ONE Torque-centric chapter and folks commented to say they weren’t going to read anymore because I was being stupid and indulgent. And, like, dunno, taking up their time when I’d already written 60+ chapters of JUST Prowl and Lockdown?

It was very clear she wasn’t allowed to have her own relationships with either of them, and the backlash threw me so much, I felt like I was being told that my relationships with these characters meant nothing.

Ahhh. The memory still stings. 

I was so ashamed, and I had no reason to be. Why do people say these things to other living, hoping, healing human beings making a story? The same thing happened when I included a chapter of her in Odd Moments, with her trying to escape a very real and familiar abusive situation – the frustration and fear of leaving a person who wouldn’t be left – and the misogynistic comments just kept coming. I deleted that chapter within a day, and can’t even remember if I deleted the Partners one.

I get that fans can be dicks sometimes, especially if what you’re doing infringes on their “all pairing all the time” show. One thing I can be so, so grateful for is how much more accepted OCs are nowadays, with people even making zines and asktumblrs and such. It’s cool. It feels like a bigger world, in a way.

All this to say, thank you, friend.

This is a super emotional day for me already, since I’ve opened pre-orders for my new original work, and you’re reminding me of how far I’ve come and how I’ve grown to love and value my own priorities in storytelling. You’re an angel, thank you. Just … thanks. It means the world to me that someone would remember her after all this time. I love my gal and I always will.

#fanfiction #transformers #fandom #demyrie

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Nikko, Japan

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help

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Full Transcript at the link; 3-minute listen.

Quote:

By taking biopsies from long COVID patients before and after exercising, scientists in the Netherlands constructed a startling picture of widespread abnormalities in muscle tissue that may explain this severe reaction to physical activity.

Among the most striking findings were clear signs that the cellular power plants, the mitochondria, are compromised and the tissue starved for energy.

"We saw this immediately and it's very profound," says Braeden Charlton, one of the study's authors at Vrije University in Amsterdam.

The tissue samples from long COVID patients also revealed severe muscle damage, a disturbed immune response, and a buildup of microclots.

"This is a very real disease," says Charlton. "We see this at basically every parameter that we measure."

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how to find literally any post on a blog in seconds (on desktop)

there are so many posts about ~tumblr is so broken, you can’t find any post on your own blog, it’s impossible, bluhrblub~

I am here to tell you otherwise! it is in fact INCREDIBLY easy to find a post on a blog if you’re on desktop/browser and you know what you’re doing:

url.tumblr.com/tagged/croissant will bring up EVERY post on the blog tagged with the specific and exact phrase #croissant. every single post, every single time. in chronological order starting with the most recent post. note: it will not find #croissants or that time you made the typo #croidnssants. for a tag with multiple words, it’s just /tagged/my-croissant and it will show you everything with the exact phrase #my croissant

url.tumblr.com/tagged/croissant/chrono will bring up EVERY post on the blog tagged with the exact phrase #croissant, but it will show them in reverse order with the oldest first 

url.tumblr.com/search/croissant isn’t as perfect at finding everything, but it’s generally loads better than the search on mobile. it will find a good array of posts that have the word croissant in them somewhere. could be in the body of the post (op captioned it “look at my croissant”) or in the tags (#man I want a croissant). it won’t necessarily find EVERYTHING like /tagged/ does, but I find it’s still more reliable than search on mobile. you can sometimes even find posts by a specific user by searching their url. also, unlike whatever random assortment tumblr mobile pulls up, it will still show them in a more logically chronological order

url.tumblr.com/day/2020/11/05 will show you every post on the blog from november 5th, 2020, in case you’re taking a break from croissants to look for destiel election memes 

url.tumblr.com/archive/ is search paradise. easily go to a particular month and see all posts as thumbnails! search by post type! search by tags but as thumbnails now

url.tumblr.com/archive/filter-by/audio will show you every audio post on your blog (you can also filter by other post types). sometimes a little imperfect if you’re looking for a video when the op embedded the video in a text post instead of posting as a video post, etc

url.tumblr.com/archive/tagged/croissant will show you EVERY post on the blog tagged with the specific and exact phrase #croissant, but it will show you them in the archive thumbnail view divided by months. very useful if you’re looking for a specific picture of a croissant that was reblogged 6 months ago and want to be able to scan for it quickly 

url.tumblr.com/archive/filter-by/audio/tagged/croissant will show you every audio post tagged with the specific phrase #croissant (you can also filter by photo or text instead, because I don’t know why you have audio posts tagged croissant) 

the tag system on desktop tumblr is GENUINELY amazing for searching within a specific blog! 

caveat: this assumes a person HAS a desktop theme (or “custom theme”) enabled. a “custom theme” is url.tumblr.com, as opposed to tumblr.com/url. I’ve heard you have to opt-into the former now, when it used to be the default, so not everyone HAS a custom theme where you can use all those neat url tricks. 

if the person doesn’t have a “custom theme” enabled, you’re beholden to the search bar. still, I’ve found the search bar on tumblr.com/url is WAY more reliable than search on mobile. for starters, it tends to bring posts up in a sensible order, instead of dredging up random posts from 2013 before anything else

if you’re on mobile, I’m sorry. godspeed and good luck finding anything. (my one tip is that if you’re able to click ON a tag rather than go through the search bar, you’ll have better luck. if your mutual has recently reblogged a post tagged #croissant, you can click #croissant and it’ll bring up everything tagged #croissant just like /tagged/croissant. but if there’s no readily available tag to click on, you have to rely on the mobile search bar and its weird bizarre whims) 

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damn ok lake superior

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“oh no, my audience has begun to guess the big twists of my story and are accurately predicting what will happen!”

incorrect response: write the rest of the story to be as twisty, shocking and counter to expectations as possible, regardless of whether this is a logical or satisfying way for the plot to go

correct response: