(taking notes) mhmm mmm okay yep mmm so what i’m getting here is there were cats? a- a cat attack, yeah. and they may or may not have been wearing human skin suits? it’s just we had reports that they were the ones being skinned, so- yeah. okay, plenty of ways to skin them, gotcha. but you saw the whole thing did you? you and your boyfriend? yes sir i know he’s your boyfriend, you told me that once, yes i’ve put that in my notes—
literally just gonna be describing my boyfriend here just fyi. kind, clever, sweet, supportive, funny, generous, understanding, not-so-secret softie, loves animals and nature, laid-back, adventurous but also loves his creature comforts, an old soul just like me. also great hair, handsome, smells good, lovely hands, pretty eyes, and most importantly: makes the perfect cuppa :•)
do you have a character (or characters because I know how hard it can be to choose just one) who you are just like obsessed with. when you think about them, it physically hurts. you love them and you think they have layers that deserve to be unpeeled and examined with more nuance than they usually get. a character you would defend because you understand them.
if not, do you prefer chocolate, vanilla or mint chocolate chip ice cream? (yes this is strawberry erasure.)
literally ed and stede <3 (also mint choc chip ofc)
had a rough time of it yesterday but i showered and painted my nails my fav colour (🧡) and my best friend brought me sweets 🥰 feeling a LOT better today!! :•)
it’s my 28th birthday in march and i’m crowdfunding for my top surgery! going private is the only option thanks to 4-5 year waiting lists for NHS consultations in the UK, and i haven’t even been referred to a GIC as of now. of course i’ll be putting my own funds towards the costs but at an average cost of £5,000-£8,000 it would take me years to save - a position myself and many other trans people are in, which breaks my heart. i wish trans healthcare was better than this.
i am so unhappy as i am. i want to get married in a few years in a body that feels like my own. i want to be happy with how my clothes fit. i want to not wear a binder every day, especially as a chronic asthmatic. i want to not feel depressed and uncomfortable and sick to my stomach about my chest. i just want to live, instead of feeling like my life is stuck on hold. i want to go into my 30s as a new man.
i’ll keep my justgiving page and my tumblr updated as i go forwards with consultations, finding a surgeon, gender dysphoria referrals and all that jazz! i currently have an appointment to get my dysphoria diagnosis and we'll go from there!
if you can’t donate, i appreciate you regardless, and just sharing this will help enormously. thank you so very much! ⭐️❤️✨