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“I don’t think that there’s anything worse than being ordinary.”

American Beauty (1999)

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it's 00:06 am and I'm 18, I can't stop crying over this email from my sociology teacher lol.

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what's up, it's 1:33 am and I'm watching twinkling watermelon bc my schools IT dictator forgot to ban kdrama websites, hopefully I'll have 6 months of recaps for you by 8pm tmrw! I'll have to borrow a library computer to edit them though,

c u later lol

Amimi

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i really dislike it when people don’t understand perfectionism.

like, it isn’t always “person who has tons of motivation and spends a ton of time making this thing *just* right”

wayyyyyy more often than not it’s:

”I know that if I try to make this thing, it won’t be perfect, so I simply won’t try.”

which definitely sounds bad, right? but when you realize that it doesn’t just apply to voluntarily making art, then you realize how perfectionism is not at all a good thing in any context. 

“i know that if I try to work on this assignment right now, it won’t be good enough, so i’ll wait until the last possible moment so that I have something forcing me to do it.”

”i know that I should start going to the gym, but I won’t see any improvement right away, so I just won’t.”

”i know that i should brush my teeth tonight, but that won’t be good enough to undo the fact that i haven’t brushed them 4 days in a row, so I just won’t.”

perfectionism isn’t the uncontrollable impulse to make things “just right”. (although it can occasionally manifest as this.)

perfectionism is the absolute, psychological inability to accept the concepts of “good enough” and “better than nothing”. even when you spell it out for yourself in a long text post like this.

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isn’t it weird how it’s already february but it’s also only february

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whats up what's up, my school IT admin has gone a bit mad with power and blocked social media, films, games etc from any device linked to our school system which means this blog has taken quite a blow as the only legit means of watching I have are film4 and BBCIPlayer so I can't just do whatever I like now. nevertheless i thought I'd let you know that this blog has not been abandoned at all and I've just taken some time away from social media to try and get back on track with school - however I aim on posting my remaining drafts and uploading my Jan recap next week!!

ps - if you know any other legit movie websites then let me know

see you soon!

Aminaurrrr

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another important thing to remember is 1) u can pick up any hobby at any point in ur life and get outstandingly good at it & 2) the project u've been working on & aren't pleased w the current outcome so far will not be your last. u will draw/crochet/paint/sculpt/write another piece, and another, and you will have many chances to be fully content w your craft. so you should cherish the joy of making art instead of worrying ab the results & think ab how lovely it is that we're all vessels for artistry and we can share the divine act of creation!!!!!

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hi its 30 mins past midnight, I'll be sure to post the rest of the updates and recaps soon! I've been occupied with ppe revision and I'm getting really humbled rn over crying over a guy I haven't even dated or spoken to for that long so yay ig, I'll see you all next week

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Trying to identify someone's time zone by the hours that they're active on Tumblr is commiting the logical fallacy of assuming that anyone on here has a regular sleep schedule

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september struggles

Sat 30th Sep - 22:06 what's up! it's the start of a new (and for me, final) academic year.

this month has been so much and so little at the same time? if that even makes sense. i'm slowly learning to use an actual camera. so far i've borrowed two different models from my youth foundation, the canon eos m50 and the canon 200d with a 50mm kit lense. I found the m50 really fun to use and i picked up on how to use it really quickly! i had more difficulty with the 200D, or more specifically the ability to zoom in and out? i looked up tutorials on youtube but i couldn't find anything. anyways it was really zoomed in which i didn't really like seeing as i'm learning to use cameras for the sake of making a film portfolio, so i found i liked the other camera more as it felt more flexible. on the more school-focused side of things, i had a ton of trouble on my media coursework, which i found incredibly hard to start on - the aim was to make a film magazine which i haven't done a lot for yet - my teacher said my initial drafts feel more like a fashion or editorial magazine than anything else i had aimed to catch up for sociology entirely, but i only managed to do one of 4 sections.

i think the first month back to school is always the hardest, it weirds me out thinking this is my last first month back ever. growing up feels weird. until next time! Amina p.s - times flown by so fast, its weird looking back and editing this in my drafts, i'm somehow posting on new years eve but its better late than never!

#amimi #monthly #diarypost #student #diaryposting

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hey hey hey its been a long while, I'm very aware I missed out my September and October recaps but I'll be sure to post those alongside my November recap soon, this have been very all over the place but I hope to get back on track soon

#amimi

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feeling like him lately

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do you heavily relate to darlington’s extreme longing for anything magical and extraordinary or are you normal

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Shut the hell up …

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what up!! do you ever randomly have memories of complete strangers pop into your head?! I recall this one lady with blond hair and glasses and her ginger curly haired son from the line in poundland when I was younger. I don't remember what they said but I think I was anxious about being left in the line alone while mum popped off to get something she'd forgotten? she was so kind. I still remember her face so vividly.

#reasons why im probably an insomniac #amimi #night #random

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i considered completely scrapping 7 days 7 movies after the first post completely flopped, but i figured that since i haven't really cared about notes on any of my other series of posts i should really do something with the brief drafts? so, give me some time to catch up on my current work and i'll be sure to post the rest of the series all at once!?!?!