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we do not talk enough about how you get hit front and back by being a jew and supporting Palestine. For a recipe that i want to make during Shabbat I have to scroll through a jewish recipe blog and cringe at the I Stand With Israel posts and then go back.

so a bunch of jewish spaces aren't safe anymore or are landmines. then you're forced to go someplace else. then there's tumblr with the people who think Jews=Zionist.

like oh, you're jewish? they immediately think you support the idf or something and praise genocide or something. your family barely survived a genocide that wasn't even like more than three generations ago and its being used as some sort of crutch to israel's moral defense when israel does NOT give a fuck about holocaust survivors at all except for their pr...

like damn bro im just trying to live my life and cook normally. Palestine has my entire heart. but like the pipeline from Palestine advocacy to accidental antisemitism to purposeful antisemitism is so 😭😭. man. i just wanna say guys jewish people aren't your enemies. the goal is to stop genocide not make the nazis proud of you or something

#gentile support tag

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rough drafting week 2

second chapter is short, a little over 5k. that puts me at 13.7k total, two chapters in.

that also puts me halfway through act 1. if I start posting once I have roughs of all four chapters (and an edited final of ch1 ofc)... yeah, july. maybe june.

#endless cavedos bullshit

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Dude it is SO FUN and EXCITING to see a reoccurring reader. If you've commented a handful of times on an author's work, I guarantee that they recognize you. You can't imagine how many times I've excitedly informed my friends "the person with the funny cat image commented!" "- anon is back!!!!" and the friends've recognized who I was talking about because I talk about my commenters so often LOL. We love you all!!!

[fuchsiamae]

"if you ship this thing it's because you're too naïve to understand that it's toxic and that you wouldn't like a relationship like this" actually it's because I see one of them as a mentos drop and the other as a bottle of coke zero and I want to watch the mess they'll be together

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NEED HELP WRITING? (a masterlist)

I have likely not added many that I've reblogged to this list. Please feel free to roam my blog and/or ask/message me to add something you'd like to see on this list!

Synonym Lists

Look by @writers-potion

Descriptors

Voices by @saraswritingtipps

Show, Don't Tell by @lyralit

Tips & Tricks

5 Tips for Creating Intimidating Antagonists by @writingwithfolklore

How To (Realistically) Make a Habit of Writing by @byoldervine

Let's Talk About Misdirection by @deception-united

Tips to Improve Character Voice by @tanaor

Stephen King's Top 20 Rules for Writers posted by @toocoolformedschool

Fun Things to Add to a Fight Scene (Hand to Hand Edition) by @illarian-rambling

Questions I Ask My Beta Readers by @burntoutdaydreamer

Skip Google for Research by @s-n-arly

Breaking Writing Rules Right: Don't Write Direct Dialogue by @septemberercfawkes

Databases/Resources

International Clothing

Advice/Uplifting

Too Ashamed of Writing To Write by @writingquestionsanswered

"Said" is Beautiful by @blue-eyed-author

#writing #reference

[fuchsiamae]

A small victory to celebrate for today

#politics #thank god

[fuchsiamae]

I don't think I'm patient enough to rough draft the whole thing before releasing, so I'm thinking of going by act. act 1 is four chapters. this chapter took me a week and a half, which would be six weeks total if they all take that long + a week each for revisions = 2.5 months

so, july? maybe??

#endless cavedos bullshit #it could happen #ofc may/june will kick my ass with irl work stuff so likely not #but it's possible

[fuchsiamae]

rough drafting week 1

bad: slower going than I'd kinda hoped after speeding through the zero, turns out writing is still hard

good: it is going. I'm most of the way through a rough of one chapter, which I think I can finish this week, and after wrestling around some pieces I'm happier with their new positions. writing more holistically is giving me a better view of how stuff fits together, instead of bumbling along chapter-to-chapter and being stuck with ideas I committed to before seeing the whole shape of the thing.

this chapter is 6k so far, likely will finish around 7-8k. which would be double the zero, like the zero doubled the outline. there's no way that'll stay consistent, tho.

right??

#endless cavedos bullshit

[fuchsiamae]

outline was almost 30k. zero is 83k. if the full rough draft ends up as some 160k monster istg...

rough drafting week 1

bad: slower going than I'd kinda hoped after speeding through the zero, turns out writing is still hard

good: it is going. I'm most of the way through a rough of one chapter, which I think I can finish this week, and after wrestling around some pieces I'm happier with their new positions. writing more holistically is giving me a better view of how stuff fits together, instead of bumbling along chapter-to-chapter and being stuck with ideas I committed to before seeing the whole shape of the thing.

this chapter is 6k so far, likely will finish around 7-8k. which would be double the zero, like the zero doubled the outline. there's no way that'll stay consistent, tho.

right??

#endless cavedos bullshit #there's no way tho right #right???

[fuchsiamae]

a caroline for her appreciation day!

#cad24 #caroline portal #that's an angel

[fuchsiamae]

ghost in the machine, for caroline appreciation day

#forever girl #caroline portal #glados #cad24

[fuchsiamae]

not putting this one in the tags, but for caroline appreciation day this year I'm specifically appreciating caroline from "the long game" by silverstreams (posted with silver's permission)

smutfic spinoff of "the long game" (spoilers thru ch29) NONCON caroline/chell this fic contains nonconsensual sexual punishment. also verbal degradation and ableism. only click this link if you want to read that. dead dove do not eat.

anybody who DOES want to see tlgaroline win her long game (and/or wants her to wreck them sexually), you're welcome, have fun

#you've heard of fix-it fic #this is break-it fic #fuchsia writes #that's a nice slowburn healing and trust-building lesbian ship you got there. have you considered tho: blow it up and let your villain win

[fuchsiamae]

And I can't make love in my grave

Lyrics from ghosting

HAPPY CAROLINE APPRECIATION DAY!!!

#caroline portal #chell #cad24 #the caroline face grab (tm)

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My drawing for Caroline Appreciation Day ^^

#caroline portal #forever girl #cad24 #ooohhhh xeb she's perfect

[fuchsiamae]

like with lolita I feel like even when people are defending the book they tend to go too far in the wrong direction and flatten it into "well obviously the book isn't sympathetic towards pedophilia, you're supposed to hate humbert and think he's disgusting at all times" and I just feel like that's reductive bc like. the book is absolutely not sympathetic towards pedophilia but imo you ARE supposed to find humbert funny and kind of tragic and charming and that's like. the point! like he's intentionally written to be all these things!

if the book wanted to just be like. a straightforward condemnation of pedophilia, then humbert wouldn't be the narrator. but it's not a book about child sexual abuse being bad -- like that kind of goes without saying, you don't really need to argue it -- it's a book about the ways humbert justifies his abuse to himself, and to the audience. it's a book that's largely about how stories are told, and the way personal and cultural narratives can be used to justify even the worst imaginable behavior. humbert doesn't describe himself abusing a child, he describes himself being 'seduced' by a 'nymphet'; he likens his relationship to that of dante and beatrice or petrarch and laureen to establish historical legitimacy and lend a sort of tragic romanticism to it. it almost feels like the book is less focused on the story itself, and more on the way humbert spins it. he isn't written to be an obviously hateable monster, he's written to be erudite and tragic and funny, and that's because the book isn't trying to teach you that child abuse is bad, it's demonstrating the ways that being erudite and tragic and funny can be used to normalize and justify something that you already know is bad. imo it's largely a book about the ways that someone can construct a mythology to convince themselves of anything, and how if we don't think critically about what we're told then we can fall into the same trap.

it's also absolutely a story about reading past the lines to figure out what's actually going on. like it's funny that the book has become such a touchstone for discourse about Media Literacy bc I really think that 'media literacy' is like. one of the core themes. like the book kind of requires that you ignore the way humbert writes to make out what he's actually describing; the worse his behavior gets, the more flowery and beautiful his writing becomes. the story the book tells if you buy into humbert's mythology and the story it tells if you don't are dramatically different.

like the ways that the book depicts dolores suffering are there, but you almost have to read past the narrative humbert presents to see them, right? like when he complains about dolores being irritable and cruel and moody, he's presenting the picture of a fickle and unreasonable WOMAN who is toying with his emotions. but when you read what he's actually describing instead of the way he describes it, it reads like a fact sheet on spotting child abuse! she has mood swings, she lashes out at people, nothing makes her happy, she cries herself to sleep most nights. if we read humbert's account at face value, she's a fickle seductress who gets a sick thrill out of hurting him; if we recognize his bias and intentions in writing it, she's a deeply depressed and traumatized child still attempting to resist her abuser despite everything she's been through. like it's as close to an exercise in 'media literacy' as a book can get in that regard.

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Hey teenagers.

You aren't slick. We adults know you look at our smut. We know no amount of minors DNI is gonna stop you from looking at our smut. We were teenagers once too, you know?

But please. Don't interact with people about sexual things online. Reading somebodies adult fic is fine. I don't like it, but you're gonna do it. Commenting on that smutfic, or joining a discord server for it, puts everyone in a really dangerous situation. Thats an entirely different level of risk. Not even with people your own age, since you can never know for sure.

#pleeeeeeease #i was reading smut at 14 i won't tell you not to #but PLEASE stick to lurking for your safety and everyone else's

[fuchsiamae]

at some point eventually I gotta finish a caroline/pauling thing

#ultimate admin assistant day