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[h0undblood]

Great argument, unfortunately BARKS AT YOU BARKS AT YOU WOOF WOOF

[h0undblood]

apr 23

i slept. i feel better now, a little less agitated, but my body is protesting. there's a pain in my ribs that's keeping my esrs pinned well back. no tail wags today.

being a working dog sucks. there are days like these where all i want and need is to curl up and sleep. i need to claw my way out of this nest soon. the worst part is not having my partner. she's off this week, so i bear the weight of my managers temperamental nature alone.

I am tired, and i want to run very far away

#nonhuman #caninekin #werewolfkin #journal #dogsjournal

[h0undblood]

I built a nest to try and calm the agitation. Despite, I still bare my teeth at nothing.

#dogkin #wolfkin #caninekin #werewolfkin #nonhuman #alterhuman

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apr 22.

March 13th-ish was the last time I felt the need to upload here. It's now April 22nd, and everything is back. I became comfortable in my therianthropy and thought for a while I was partially human - I was so wrong.

The.. things are back, albeit minor. I'm hearing things, seeing things. I'm paranoid, irritable and aggressive. I'm sporadic and have lots of energy yet no energy.

Despite this, my truth has come back. I feel more dog with each day that passes. I slept with my tail on to keep myself comfortable, but I now find I don't need it because I can feel my own. Human terms are becoming uncomfortable again. Humans continue to percieve me normally, but I can feel my muzzle. My ears. My tail. My paws. They may see a human, but they don't see the dog under it all. They don't see it because I don't allow them to. I'd be studied if I acted and looked how I was meant to.

TL:DR - Woof Woof BARK BAKR BARK. Wuf. Bark!

#nonhuman #nonhumanity #alterhuman #werewolf #dogkin #caninekin #mental health #vent #kind of?

[h0undblood]

got terrified someone was breaking in at 3am, so i got fully dressed and im sat in my room listening silently. inthinkmahbe i need professional help lol

#mental illness #tw unreality #unreality #i think anyway #actually hallucinating #tw hallucinations

[h0undblood]

saw a construction sign that said OPEN YOUR WINDOWS while i was on the bus. when i looked back it was about road closure. what the Fuck LOL

new hallucination just dropped guys

i'm now reading words as entirely different words. sometimes it's entirely irrelevant and nonsensical like "eating dishwashers" on an ad, or it'll be "KILL YOURSELF" on a pack of chips lol

#tw hallucinations #tw unreality #i think? #mental illness #mental health

[h0undblood]

this job is making me so much worse.

[h0undblood]

all i want to do is get better.

all that's in my head is getworsegetworsegetworse

#mental illness #mentally ill #vent post #vent

[h0undblood]

[h0undblood]

“do you want to talk about it?”

no, i want to kill myself because of it.

[h0undblood]

new hallucination just dropped guys

i'm now reading words as entirely different words. sometimes it's entirely irrelevant and nonsensical like "eating dishwashers" on an ad, or it'll be "KILL YOURSELF" on a pack of chips lol

#actually hallucinating #hallucinations #mental illness #paranoia #idk what to tag this as actually #enjoy these ig #houndblood yaps

[h0undblood]

I feel like there are a lot of people out there who needs to hear this:

If you dropped out of school because of diagnosed (or undiagnosed) ADHD, Autism, ADD, OCD, Dyslexia, Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar disorder, psychotic disorders, schizophrenia etc… You did not fail. The education system failed you.