lost-in-the-gay

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Concept: we are together. you are sleeping with your body wrapped around mine. it is quiet. my mind is calm. we are happy.

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My bed feels so empty without you, and you haven't even slept in it.

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Yet I lay here dreaming of you. When I probably never crossed your mind.

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It's funny, all the stupid stuff I've done just to talk to you for a few more minutes.

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Shiiiiiiiiitttt lmfao I fell way too damn fast for this girl and I already know its more than likely only staying a friendship. Fuck i hate myself

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Fuck man, i hate that im sitting here hoping;

that while she’s at the bar tonight, all she can think about is wanting me there with her.

But i know damn well I overthink things and she could care less probably.

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Put a secret in my ask box

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IT HURTS SO FUCKING BAD TO WAKE UP I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN IT ANYMORE.

Please just break my heart, tell me you hate me, tell me you cheated on me, tell me you never loved me, do something so I can stop loving you.

Honestly I wanna die thinking about having to wake up everyday just to realize I fucked up and lost you.

Im so fucking sorry. I was a kid, i was starting new medicine. You weren’t out and I thought that would’ve made things 20x harder to see/be with you. I didnt know what I wanted in life. I could say anything in the excuse book but the honest truth is I fucked up and theres no excuse for it. And I am so, so, so fucking sorry.

BUT GOD DAMN AS SOON AS WE ENDED THAT FACETIME CALL, I SHATTERED ON THE FLOOR. I WANTED TO CALL BACK AND SAY I DON’T KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING. PLEASE LETS WORK ON US.

Now its too late.

I truly think you dont have a sliver of love for me anymore.

And oh my god that fucking hurt to type out and admit to myself.

I will forever wait for you.

I am so fucking serious when i say I really just want it to be you and I in the end.

I have never been so sure about anything in my life, but I know for a fact, I am sure that you are who I want to grow old with.

I promise you if I ever get a second chance, I will cherish it and you for the eternity of my life.

#quotes #love quotes #heartbroken #heartbreak #relationship #breakup #second chance at love #second chances #feelings #spilled ink #im sorry #forgive me #indecisive

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anonymously send me a song to listen to.

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ok, send anon 

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I'm afraid we will always be a book with the end pages ripped out.

Madisen Kuhn