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i like him

#xmen #scott summers #cyclops #uncanny xmen #xmen cyclops #nightcrawler as a space filler may become a frequent occurrence #im still kind of obsessed with YELLOW 🟡 ... a lot of yellow on here lately i feel #also im in dire need of some more stickers i have no stars left and no other good ones #i kind of want some classic smiley face stickers they'd be good additions to various art pieces probably

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low quality snakes and ocelots

#metal gear solid #mgs #revolver ocelot #big boss #i drew maria but messed it up well it happens. today is not a drawing day unfortunately

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the phrase "born from a wish" and how exactly it can be applied to maria is still so interesting to me like. whose wish is it..?

like i really enjoy the idea of maria as an entity created by james, and ive usually used that interpretation in art or writing, but i do also like the idea of maria being "created" by mary instead. and not just as a sort of idealised version of herself - free of disease, beautiful, desirable, maybe a product of some sexual repression etc - but also out of her sheer loneliness? like of course she's longing for james but their relationship is obviously degrading and so you can think of maria as being born out of marys wish to 1. not be sick and 2. not be lonely. so maria is sort of. both an aspiration and a companion to mary.

and if maria was born from mary's mind, maria's feelings about herself and about james are going to be slightly different. does she have more sympathy for mary? less of the accursed creator vibe and more of an understanding? is she a more complete copy of mary because she has been produced directly from mary's consciousness, instead of being born simply from james' wishes and his perception of mary? does that make it easier or harder? her role as james' antagonist/enemy could be sort of motivated by her bond with mary.

and idk basically it's like what are we. are we beautiful twin sisters dying in the lake are you my mother are you my clone are you my rival are you my enemy are you my friend are you myself. it's all of the above i guess really.

#im jast thinking out loud.... #it's maria&mary thursday #i came home from an exam reflected upon it with slight regret for 5 seconds and then immediately forgot about it and started thinking about #maria and mary instead. as it should be #silent hill 2 #sh2

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very enriching finally getting into a New Interest that i can draw art for ie X-men. much to explore and many new challenges await. for example how do i tackle the conundrum that is scott summers aka world's most swagless white boy who is annoying, boring and a square yet MUST, by the laws of my art style, be drawn as cunty as possible whilst still retaining his aforementioned core essences i.e. a complete lack of cunt. it's the cunt paradox. a fascinating science i continue to dedicate myself to.

#i have some free time today but i might draw maria&mary idk...its been a while...i need my onion and garlic girls

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doodles

#xmen #uncanny xmen #scott summers #ororo munroe #kurt wagner #and wolvie sort of ...and i forgot colossus SORRY SORRY SORRY #sigh i haven't drawn much bc ive been busy but once my exams are over next week i will Return

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15.04.24

#journal #YIPPEE! #i did not attend kidz bop never stop tour btw. i just picked up this leaflet a while ago because it was funny and i knew i could use it in a #collage at some point.... #um materials used here are quite varied but to name a few. leaflet advertising shrewsbury festival. comic shop receipt. token card from a #beer festival. packaging from a figure. easter chick from the most essential item an artist can own: crafts beautiful magazine 2003. #the robot doodles are not mine they are from the festival leaflet #im kind of obsessed with qr codes to be honest like they're ugly and vile and too prevalent in our world but also because they're literally #on everything they're a good thing to collect i guess. a reflection of our times

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started reading THE SEX MEN recently

#x men #kurt wagner #nightcrawler #uncanny xmen #<- what tags do i even use. i just got here i don't know nothing! #can't believe im reading “marvel comics” but after absorbing it via osmosis from the besties ...well. many such cases

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bosselot ranting and raving which genuinely makes no sense and isn't worth reading ↓

something something big boss becoming a lone, paranoid figure who trusts no one because of his series of betrayals i.e. the boss' "defection", les enfants terribles, the boss' (perceived) abandonment of him in her desire for peace, kaz's involvement with cipher etc. something something when you trust no one but yourself maybe you Would have quite a fascination with someone who is your phantom/copy/double/clone/you. unlike les enfants terribles venom is the kind of "clone" that bb can forge a twisted affection for, due to his absolute loyalty and due to his being, well, him. am i about to start "shipping bbvenom" well not really i'm just pondering big boss and also, as usual, pondering my favourite phenomenon of People Who Are Identical But Not Quite. im big boss and so are you. im maria s/ilent hill and so are you. im solid and im liquid we're the stupid brothers. etc

also. sigh. basically im attempting to write a fic (who knows if it will ever see the light of day) where ocelot gives himself big boss' scar. just for fun/because he's insane. 1964: i wanted to eat the same food as him -> 1973ish: i wanted to permanently mark myself with the same scar he gave himself which also happens to be my mother's scar from birthing me etc. #justocelotthings. and big boss goes through 10000 shrimp colour stages of anger/grief/fascination/horny/acceptance in reaction to it.

and i was thinking about post pw incident where bb is beginning his shift into a much darker, closed off figure and he's full of bitterness in the wake of all his chucking-her-bandana-into-the-ocean The Boss Feelings and also his divorce with kaz. and how maybe his feelings towards ocelot (which are as insane as they've ever been due to the recent development of The Scar) are also shifting a little. up until now he's accepted ocelots promises of devotion and loyalty and he's reciprocated ocelot's affection because he does genuinely Like Him Despite Everything and they have had their weird little Thing going on for many years. but now it's like. concepts such as loyalty to the end and unconditional devotion are beginning to lose their credibility; bb questions whether even ocelot might not be his ally forever. and does BB even Want ocelot's loyalty? he's a useful person but BB never ASKED for ocelots loyalty. loyalty, devotion, subservience - these are hollow promises. he likes ocelot when he's a real human and not a soldier. he likes ocelot as his equal. one might even go as far as to say - he likes ocelot best as an extension of himself. he likes ocelot as his mirror. "you're not a snake and im not an ocelot?" wrong. we're both snakes. as you said yourself, ocelot, in a nice little scene in approximately chapter 2 (doesn't exist), now that you've given yourself that scar, "we match". we're nothing but a pair of snakes. we're red string of fate tied to each other more than ever. we're the sons of the boss; we're twin snakes. we're metal gear solid: the twin snakes 2004 developed by konami and silicon knights for the nintendo gamecube. but we're not just two snakes, we're an ourobouros. i don't just want you to pledge your loyalty to "big boss", i want you to be big boss. i want to you to live my dream, not just be an ally to it.

in actual fact maybe he is just in love with ocelot (squee!) but this is big boss we're talking about so. he is literally a weapon he is war itself he's the war machine he's a soulless dead fish of a man. and either destroying or assimilating everything in his path forever is kind of his whole theme. and ocelot as a literal child of the battlefield will never escape it either. so they both just blow up and go to hell forever.

OR DO THEY. maybe bb is actually like wow everyone is betraying me the boss has abandoned me and ive abandoned her except never entirely even if i did throw her bandana into the sea in a moment of rage ive still got this scar on my chest. and so does ocelot because he's insane about me hm to be honest maybe i should just Give Up War and we can both retire and live on a ranch together forever the end.maybe that's actually what happens. life could be dream.

also please god let me find a job soon ive been unemployed for 7 months this is what happens when i don't have a job it gives me the time to think about bosselot until my brain melts and oozes and i start writing very long incomprehensible posts on my art blog at 3pm which does nobody any good. sigh

#ok im going to go do my real life tasks now. phew

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hope you enjoy this 5 chapter fic i wrote in my mind whilst rotting in bed at 12pm today. the link is here: www.insideofmyhead.brain. please beam any comments directly to my frontal lobe ^_^

#i hate writing. you have to take the imaginary words from your head and make them be real in some kind of document.sad

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the twin snakes

#AUGH!!!! ty for adding this omg;_; #the mgs1 novelisation truly an interesting piece of literature... not good but it gives us gems such as these so ig we salute it

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the twin snakes

#metal gear solid #mgs #solid snake #liquid snake #im imagining this as solids pov not long after mgs1 i.e. before all the Liquid Came Back As An Arm happened.. #snavids feelings abt liquid are something ive vaguely wanted to explore properly for a while but seeing the post going around recently #showing snavid having liquids dog tags in mgs2 spurred me to finally do it lol so ty to the op of that post lol

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the shit twins 👍

#metal gear solid #mgs #solid snake #liquid snake #im kind of in a liquid phase rn.... liquid the character that is. i don't mean i am currently in a liquid form #or do i *trickles and seeps* #tbh im going thru a colours phase and specifically a yellow phase at the moment ...... 👍⭐💛☝️✨

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I'M YOUR SHADOW!

#mgs #metal gear solid #liquid snake #mgs1 #he's underrated to be honest. literally did nothing wrong and yes he's blonde but thats not his fault. they gave him the inferior #genes after all. #and he's literally a man with long hair so what else do you want #ik its april fools and in the past ive done some silliness like posting ocelhuey or whatever the hell but im not feeling it this year.. #liquid is a fool though so it's stillappropriate #i can't believe im back to mgs posting every other day. nature is healing etc

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some snavids and a kaz

#metal gear solid #mgs #solid snake #<- TAG THAT I DON'T USE NEARLY ENOUGH!!!!!! #kazuhira miller #things i have used my colourful revision cards for: mgs art #things i have not yet used them for: revision #im cooking up a few things rn......i have a liquid n solid Words And Images post brewing as well as my b/osselot fic #which i thought i was almost finished with but then i decided to expand it a bit more ... #so i have to spend a bit more time on it

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lots of him

#metal gear solid #mgs #revolver ocelot #a page of ocies is good for the soul. #btw in the little ocie thumbs up ive put the hand the wrong way round IGNORE THAT!