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   But even if I try to kill my sadness, I know life will regain in me again when the symptoms of the headache disappeared on the next day, I will have the same pain of tears routine.

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It is strange how before days I talked about that negative emotions could make you end your life, so l learn to stay away them and today, just for a seconds, when I realized I a was about to lose the most precious person for me, the sadness and despair, they just… poured out from nowhere, because the reason (as always) it is so insignificant, it does made me hopeless for our future. Hopeless that tomorrow you will not break up with me for this reason. Unfortunately, it’s heart-breaking when it comes.

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I am so sorry! I’m so fucking sorry, that I can’t live without your presence. That I agree with you when you are absolutely not right and even you don’t want to see from my view how things are even a little bit. I’m sorry for I feel how I’m about to go and jump off from some of the upper floors of some block. I’m sorry about how weak and faceless it is my character. I’m trying to pull myself up, but if you try to break me, I am going to no longer sorry for anything soon and I will never going to forgive myself for what I’m going to do after if you crush me.

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 I hate the pain!

Not because it is something wrong to not to be okay sometimes, but because the more pain you let pass inside of you, the bigger the chance to get lost in a black hole made of the same sort of distressed feelings, by which if you get out one day, you should know that you’re lucky.

Some people have got lost to the end their lives in it. Some - find their own death in it even.

The pain just it’s leading to more of its kind. Be scared of that. Not from ghosts or spooky stories that are blurring the sadness. Be scared by the culprit, cause...

one day you will desire your own death too. And that the scariest thing you could possibly desire, cause you are destroying every possibility of real happiness you might potentially have in your future. 

You will sleep for eternity after a counted years later. Now - fight!  Even if you are not really in a mood at the moment. Just close your eyes and give the biggest smile which you could possibly give. And I know that you know that is fake, but try to not remember that. Eventually, after a lot of laughs, the serotonin will become enough high, so even if you try to be sad. it won’t be so easy.

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“Não estou fazendo drama, apenas sou muito solitária. E quando não se têm alguém em quem depositar confiança, e contar sobre as coisas que andam atormentando os seus dias, um simples problema se transforma em um grande complexo.”

— Eternue.

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I’m so Sick of Arguing…

2015

Oil on Canvas

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Does your heart ever hurt so much that all you can think about is which knife will be sharp enough to numb this pain?

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my life is just a “don’t kill yourself” challenge that i’m about to lose

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Why from so long period of time I can not feel true happiness?

Why everything has to be upside down?

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